Waiting at heaven's gate
Title: Waiting at heaven's gate
Author: Criminalscream, me :)
Rating: PG
Pairing: Nishikido Ryo x Ueda Tatsuya
Summary: Ueda was pregnant from Ryo, but still he felt so empty.
- - -
I just stood there, looking at a stone on some dirt.
But it wasn't just a stone with dome dirt.
It was your stone, with your name on it. With your date of birth and the day you left us.
And you lay under this dirt.
I wanted to remove the stone and the dirt, prove everyone that you were still alive.
I wanted to be with you.
I can't go on without you.
How am I supposed to look for this little person in my belly?
The little person we made together and the little person you left.
People told me it was your time, that you had to go.
But I just don't understand why.
Why? Why did you leave me, us?
Just when everything went allright and we were finally together.
After a few times of just sex and fooling ourselves that it didn't mend anything.
We fell in love...
And after a while we found out I was pregnant.
I thought it was impossible, since I am a boy, but the doctor explained to us that in a very few cases there is a boy with female organs. And only 2% of them get actually pregnant.
I really felt like a freak, but you convinced me that I wasn't.
You said you would support me when I felt a bit depressed and that you would comfort me and kiss my tears away. And I felt so happy everytime you smiled when you felt the baby kick.
Your soft hand on my belly.
A tear fell down my face and I wiped it away before anyone noticed.
I looked around at the people who came.
Some of them were crying, others were comforting the ones who were crying, but they all looked very sad.
News and Kanjani8 were here, your bands.
And of course KAT-TUN, mine.
Your parents and brothers and sister, they all had teary faces.
I looked around. You lay on a very beautiful place now.
There were a lot of flowers and trees, and the birds in the tip of the trees were chirping.
And when you listened carefully, you could hear insects humming.
And of course you lay not alone.
Slowly everyone said goodbye to you and went home.
Kanjani8 and News all said nice things about you and if I needed them, I could always go to them.
Your family soon left after that and they promised you they would come visit you soon.
KAT-TUN were the last to leave, but before they left, they asked me if I was okay and that they would wait for me in the car.
I sadly smiled and thanked them.
I was almost 9 months pregnant and the little one became very heavy.
I found a bucket that I turned upside down and sat on it.
It wasn't that comfortable, but I didn't care much.
As long as I could stay a bit longer with you.
I put my hand on my belly when I felt him or her kicking.
We were going to name her Elisabeth when she was going to be a girl, but we didn't have a name for when it turned out to be a boy.
Right now I think I'm giving him you name.
My dear Ryo, I wish you were still here beside me.
I put a kiss on the tip of my fingers and pressed it on your stone.
But when I sat right up the baby kicked real hard.
I placed both hands on my belly and began to cry.
It was almost time for it to be born.
It was weird, I had a baby in my belly and at the same time I felt so empty, so lonely.
"Tat-chan are you okay?" Kame stood behind me and I quickly wiped my tears away.
"yes"
"You know you don't have to be strong. You just lost your love. It's not illegal to cry"
He sat down next to me and grabbed my hand.
"I just miss him so much. It's almost time for the little one and I wish Ryo was here to see it."
"You silly, but Ryo-chan can see it and I'm sure he will look out for here from the sky."
"How do you know it's going to be a girl?"
"Just a feeling" Kame smiled and I felt a bit better.
"So, are you ready to go?"
"Yes, let's go" I said and tried to stand up.
"Ano... Kame, can you help me?" I smiled and he pulled me up.
"Thanks"
"Your welcome"
We slowly got to the car.
Kame walked and I wiggled...
Fin! xD
A/N: I wrote this in an hour last night and I wanted to write a sad, but happy Ueda.
Sad, because he just had lost Ryo and happy because he is pregnant and his friends are there to help and comfort him.
I hope you liked it and comments and advice are welcome =3
Also this is my first time writing a RyoDa fic ^__^
Author: Criminalscream, me :)
Rating: PG
Pairing: Nishikido Ryo x Ueda Tatsuya
Summary: Ueda was pregnant from Ryo, but still he felt so empty.
- - -
I just stood there, looking at a stone on some dirt.
But it wasn't just a stone with dome dirt.
It was your stone, with your name on it. With your date of birth and the day you left us.
And you lay under this dirt.
I wanted to remove the stone and the dirt, prove everyone that you were still alive.
I wanted to be with you.
I can't go on without you.
How am I supposed to look for this little person in my belly?
The little person we made together and the little person you left.
People told me it was your time, that you had to go.
But I just don't understand why.
Why? Why did you leave me, us?
Just when everything went allright and we were finally together.
After a few times of just sex and fooling ourselves that it didn't mend anything.
We fell in love...
And after a while we found out I was pregnant.
I thought it was impossible, since I am a boy, but the doctor explained to us that in a very few cases there is a boy with female organs. And only 2% of them get actually pregnant.
I really felt like a freak, but you convinced me that I wasn't.
You said you would support me when I felt a bit depressed and that you would comfort me and kiss my tears away. And I felt so happy everytime you smiled when you felt the baby kick.
Your soft hand on my belly.
A tear fell down my face and I wiped it away before anyone noticed.
I looked around at the people who came.
Some of them were crying, others were comforting the ones who were crying, but they all looked very sad.
News and Kanjani8 were here, your bands.
And of course KAT-TUN, mine.
Your parents and brothers and sister, they all had teary faces.
I looked around. You lay on a very beautiful place now.
There were a lot of flowers and trees, and the birds in the tip of the trees were chirping.
And when you listened carefully, you could hear insects humming.
And of course you lay not alone.
Slowly everyone said goodbye to you and went home.
Kanjani8 and News all said nice things about you and if I needed them, I could always go to them.
Your family soon left after that and they promised you they would come visit you soon.
KAT-TUN were the last to leave, but before they left, they asked me if I was okay and that they would wait for me in the car.
I sadly smiled and thanked them.
I was almost 9 months pregnant and the little one became very heavy.
I found a bucket that I turned upside down and sat on it.
It wasn't that comfortable, but I didn't care much.
As long as I could stay a bit longer with you.
I put my hand on my belly when I felt him or her kicking.
We were going to name her Elisabeth when she was going to be a girl, but we didn't have a name for when it turned out to be a boy.
Right now I think I'm giving him you name.
My dear Ryo, I wish you were still here beside me.
I put a kiss on the tip of my fingers and pressed it on your stone.
But when I sat right up the baby kicked real hard.
I placed both hands on my belly and began to cry.
It was almost time for it to be born.
It was weird, I had a baby in my belly and at the same time I felt so empty, so lonely.
"Tat-chan are you okay?" Kame stood behind me and I quickly wiped my tears away.
"yes"
"You know you don't have to be strong. You just lost your love. It's not illegal to cry"
He sat down next to me and grabbed my hand.
"I just miss him so much. It's almost time for the little one and I wish Ryo was here to see it."
"You silly, but Ryo-chan can see it and I'm sure he will look out for here from the sky."
"How do you know it's going to be a girl?"
"Just a feeling" Kame smiled and I felt a bit better.
"So, are you ready to go?"
"Yes, let's go" I said and tried to stand up.
"Ano... Kame, can you help me?" I smiled and he pulled me up.
"Thanks"
"Your welcome"
We slowly got to the car.
Kame walked and I wiggled...
Fin! xD
A/N: I wrote this in an hour last night and I wanted to write a sad, but happy Ueda.
Sad, because he just had lost Ryo and happy because he is pregnant and his friends are there to help and comfort him.
I hope you liked it and comments and advice are welcome =3
Also this is my first time writing a RyoDa fic ^__^