.you waited for me in the rain in the parking lot.

[crimson_ice77]

The wind outside sounds like my window is going to just cave in any second. Sweet. Since Im not terrified of tornados or anything. Something's really been bothering me lately, and I can't figure out what the hell it is which ends up making me more frustrated. I guess I just feel like something's missing from my life. I've never had a best friend.

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[anonymous]

It's funny...because I completely feel the same way about a lot of things. I know that I don't have a best friend, and I gues that I was beginning to feel that you and I were better friends, but then I fucked things up once again and it's always seemed as though you'd rather hang out with someone else. Just know that I'm seriously telling you the truth when I say, I'm there if you need to talk about anything. I will listen and help you if I can.

Jo

[crimson_ice77]

Thanks hun. And I'm sorry for all the shit that's going on with bowling, I'm so fed up with that damn team right now, and I didn't mean to seem like I was only pissed off at you. Like right now, everyone else has already found rides to the tournament, with the guys or w/e.. and then there's me. I'm not going if I have to drive myself, I've already driven my car once and I honestly don't think it'll make it again, haha.

[anonymous]

Funny, it always seemed that you distanced yourself from everyone else, that's why you didn't have a best friend, you were always all over the place. I also seem to remember you saying some pretty shady stuff about Chelsea, before she ever said anything about you. I also recall some people calling to talk to you about some issues they were having and you saying "I call you back" and never doing so. Don't expect people to listen to what your going through if your not willing to do the same in return.

[crimson_ice77]

If you're not willing to leave your name, then of course I'm not going to listen to you. Thanks for the advice but I dropped my shitty attitude from highschool when I dropped everything that went along with it. I was talking more about NOW than I was then, that was only an example. I don't miss highschool, and I'm sorry for "not calling people back" but if it was such a problem, then they should've said something about it. And I love it how you say "some people" as if you weren't one of them, which you obviously were, unless you're just a stalker who likes to keep up with my life. Take your pick.

[anonymous]

so...i guess this post makes me sad. i know that you were talking about how you don't have a best friend now, but back in high school i tried to be your "best friend" but it seemed as though you really weren't interested, i mean im over it now, and i know what you are feeling...up until a few months ago i felt like i had no one but justin. i didn't have a best friend...everyone had their someone, well i had guido or justin...no girl types. i mean i tried with jess gales but she had other jess...so i do know what it's like. now i have E and sam...and others that talk to. and i do feel like i am here for you...like yesterday when you called me about the wedding, i know that i had to tell emily, sorry if that made you mad, but it's too close to the wedding to not say anything, and the night brandon got went to jail, i talked with you for a long time, don't get me wrong im not complaining that you called me, but i just saying that there are more people out there that don't fit into your two sides, unless you think of me as a back stabbing

[crimson_ice77]

I wasn't mad that you told Emily, I was mad that she called me crying because you said I didn't want to be in her wedding. It's not that I don't, I would love to be in her wedding, but I felt bad that I wouldn't be able to give all the stuff she's going to be getting from you guys as bridesmaids, because yeah, I'm never home to help out with anything. And I was going to call her after I had talked to my mom, but I didn't get a chance to since she called me. Although I am thinking of dropping bowling definately next year but maybe this semester too because it's just too much with work and class too, and I want to be able to have somewhat of a social life. And you did have a best friend, you were always close with Heather. Not anymore and I'm not saying we weren't close friends, only that I didn't feel like I had anyone to talk to, like, now... and I do not think you're a backstabbing bitch, and I never did. Life is just really weird right now..