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I'm yet again pissed off at Alan. I'll admit it I don't care. He wants to be my friend and I can't handle that. I can't pretend like nothing happened between us, it'd be too weird. I mean we're both to blame for our relationship downfall. He hurt me more than anyone else and now he wants to be friends? FUCK THAT! I was just fine not talking to him ( Read more... )

I was up all night last night and the night before and before that I only got an hour of sleep because I had to wake up at 3am to be somewhere and 430am, so, I'll say it, I AM FUCKING TIRED. But, I'll be okay, don't worry bout it, I'll just go my ass to bed tonight XD You wanna know what's bad? Five of my friends are on pills for depression, I feel ( Read more... )

Remember a few months back when Aiden ask me to name and deciribe all the guys I've loved? And I did all but two, Alan & Jimmy? Well I can do those ones now. I think I'll start with Jimmy, won't be as long ( Read more... )

As most of you know, I've been on an emotional roller coaster lately. Mostly for reasons I havn't talked about yet, but I will with this poem. This is gonna make me very vunerable but I have to move past this issue, so I'm willing to take the risk. Excuse me if the poem was rude, I wasn't in a good head space this morning. Anyways, here goes nothin ( Read more... )

All righty, it's 7:15am and I havn't slept in two days, don't know why but I can't sleep and it sucks dick. Just incase anyone was wondering, it sucks dick. I'm tired, I'm overworked, underpayed (unfortunately) and still my mom seems to think I need more resopsobility at the house. BULL-FUCKING-SHIT! I've got enough of that right now, more than I ( Read more... )

My god I have no idea where to even start. So much has been going on lately. Rob is having a tough time, and my life has become so hectic I can't be there for him like he needs. I feel terrible about that, all the times he helped me and I can't help him. I'm actually crying right now and I in no way am sure why. Rob is my best friend, one of two ( Read more... )

Okay, I'm not sure what's going on today but I feel empty. I can't really explain it but I in no way feel like me today. Probably cause the weather is messed up so everything looks differant, making me feel differant ( Read more... )

I broke through my writer's block last night, I guess I've been too bust to write. Last night I was really sad and crying alot, still can't figure out why. I'm probably getting overwhelmed with life changes, but anyways I wrote a new poem, it's a little long but I figured I'd post it ( Read more... )

Okay, Sunday night I went to a TPI meeting, it was excellent. We talked about alot of things, thwen we wnt to a local cemetary that has a history of activity. This cemetry was assoiciated with KKK activty back in the day, so you can imagine how upset the spirts are. I walked around with a new friend whom I met that night named Jeremy (he's cute too ( Read more... )