but i somehow find myself here. rereading. is it possible i'm moving backwards? is what i am attempting to do; more than, letting go of past regulations? is it more of a disregard for that which expels copious amounts of personal restrain and energy? and myself, am i better for it? obviously not ( Read more... )

at that party (the one you wish you hadn't agreed to attend ( Read more... )

.3 & .45 black pens.

that was the part when i went to see you, with intentions, and you maintained preoccupied while the other rang me through.

it's ok.

i've heard the third time's a charm.

nathan.

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repressed growth. last night although i tried really hard to develop into a man. i think only one of a pair finally dropped. anyways, one is better than none. i give myself a passing grade of 60% and thats more like 110 when you consider the assets i was given to work with.

soon enough.. i can wait.

nathan.

i devoted tonight to rereading older things. and i've concluded this thing is going downhill, fast. so i decided to enlighten the situation and inform myself on what is going on in my life other then the non-sensesicle bullshit i apparently write about all the time. for starters i've been sick for awhile now. nothing too serious. just this nagging ( Read more... )

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gave me this afternoon off. no immediately pressing school work. no shift at either job. nothing ( Read more... )

changed very much.

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and then i saw the drained catheter, tubing, insert and bag resting over the handicap handle of the stall.
disturbing, really.

nathan.