Yesterday I spent 8 hours with the same person. I cried while he smiled.
Seeing him go for a solid 2 months isn't going to do me any good, but I'll manage. I always do.
I'm also getting a hold of the sober lifestyle really well.

Wow, people really want me to fail.

I'm going to slack on going out (that means cellphone, food, clothing, having a life etc) for the next month to come and save up for a camera.
A real, good reflex digital camera.

I need like at least 700 dollars for that. Okay. I can do this. Hahaha.

As much as I know that I can't get lower than this, I still find comfort in my situation and loving every second of it.

It's pathetic. I made my sister cry. She cried because of what I am, of what I'm doing to myself, of what is happening to who I used to be.

we were trapped in our own actions, and what we wanted to be.
now i'm never going to see you again.

"je sais pas pourquoi mais j'ai vraiment envie de te voir en ce moment"

FUCK YOU.

april is tomorrow, and april means spring. spring means new things to come.

i need this. and im glad we're doing this.

If I land this job at starbuck's, I swear I'll make this world a better place.

Well, try at least.
I really want to work there. Like, really really really really really want to work there.
On another note, I'm going to prom again. Means I have to wear a dress again. I don't really enjoy wearing dresses.

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