Unmoved

[crimsonplum]

An entry for LJ Idol, Season 8, week 1: "When you pray, move your feet."

There have been times in my life when I've danced.

There have been times in my life when I've prayed.

Comments

[muchtooarrogant]

This was a very personal and moving story.

"My hands still make magic from bowls and pans and flour and spice. Dreams and worlds flow from my fingers, all but unstoppable. It's not enough..."

Oh, I dunno, it sounds very beautiful the way you've written it, but I know what you mean of course.

Great contribution to the first prompt.

Dan

[crimsonplum]

I'm truly glad you were moved. Don't get me wrong, the cooking and the writing are quite a lot - I just feel a bit...incomplete. But I trust it will all work out. Thank you for commenting.

[whipchick]

(not at the same time) made me laugh. Neat to read your journey!

[crimsonplum]

Ha, thanks! I was worried it was too light for the rest, but it's real, so I kept it. Glad you liked it!

[blythe025]

Wow. I'm sorry to hear you've lost your connection to prayer.

I don't know if it helps, but I've found that sometimes the expectation that something should happen can get in the way of the experience of it. I'll sit there and think, I'm meditating, but nothing's happening, so there must be something wrong with me. Sometimes you just have to let go of what the experience should be and just let the experience be what it is. And try be gentle with yourself. It's not failure, it's all a process. There is no end-stop.

[crimsonplum]

Thank you. There's a lot involved that's been in my way, but I haven't given up. Though the being gentle with myself is still a challenge. :)

[imafarmgirl]

Lovely entry. I like how you wrapped it up.

[crimsonplum]

Thank you!

[sweeny_todd]

but I didn't practice, and I didn't try at all if I didn't feel safe.

wow.. isn't that true! A nice entry. I too like the way this entry finished.

[crimsonplum]

So very, very true. :) Thank you! Glad you enjoyed it.