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3 days and this boy will be in Orlando.
As much as I hate admiting it, he owns a huuuuuge part of my heart. Its sad. I'm looking forward to possibly seeing him. And if i dont see him? I'll probably be really disapointed. I'm slightly excited, and seriously people, after THIS FUCKING LONG, stop giving me shit please.
in other news work is alright.
The being alone thing is starting to catch up with me. I thought I was getting better, but I then realized I was getting better at pushing my feelings aside, and this burning feeling in my chest doesnt go away.
I've been trying to figure out what I want to do with my life, where I want to go...and I can't go back to Jax, (sorry dawn) the thought of it makes me sick to my stomach, and i get that nervous feeling in my chest, I can't do it. =(. I used to say I missed orlando, but I didn't I missed my friends.
Whatever first things first tho right? get my shit together, save money, get a car, save more money, and move the hell out.