The funeral was last Friday. We left the house in Sheffield at about three in the afternoon and arrived at about ten that night; as we entered Eastbourne a light fog closed around us, shrouding our view in grey ( Read more... )

Thank you for all of your messages to the last entry, I really appriciate it ( Read more... )

I can't believe so soon after the last entry I'm going to write what I'm writing. I almost don't want to write because I was so traumatised by the last memory I shared I half feel like I tempted fate or something ( Read more... )

A few weeks ago my mum made me a series of appointments with an old friend of hers. They'd bumped into each other somewhere, swapped phone numbers and chatted about this that and the other. It turned out that the friend used to have M.E., recovered and was now an alternative therapist using the therapies that had helped her the most. My mum thought ( Read more... )

I’ve been by myself a lot lately. Yesterday I went through one of my note books and saw lists and lists of so many things: what I wanted to do, how I wanted to do them, how I could improve my health enough so I could do the things on said lists and more and more and more. Apparently when I’ve spent quite a bit of time imagining what I’d like to be ( Read more... )

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I was seven when we moved into this house. Soon after we settled in I noticed hanging from the bathroom blind on a bit of old cord was a little piece of paper with the words, “Pull And Die” scrawled on it. I was obsessed with this note. Who wrote it? Would I really die if I pulled it? How did they know, what awful thing would happen? Would everyone ( Read more... )

Five Things Beautiful about the World

1. Your compassion and kindness
2. Your wisdom and independant thinking
3. When you're silly and laughing
4. When you're serious and deep
5. Your honesty and sincerity

Sometimes it’s hard to describe what I have in my mind. Suddenly I remember my childhood though, of sitting in the garden, luscious dirt between my fingers and imagining the day when I’d find “someone like me.” I didn’t know the word “soul mate” then, I just knew that somewhere out there was someone who came from the same place I did, was made of ( Read more... )

5 Things about my Cat

1. He was so purry today!
2. He was really making a loud noise.
3. He got cuddled by me a lot.
4. He purred so much that he actually gave himself the hiccups!
5. He fell asleep and did funny snoring :)