so here is the deal I have excatly 10 chance to talk to him and after that i'm s.o.l (so outta luck) the thing is i will no longer be a member of the ccac after i have used my vip guess pass which allows me 10 and only 10 more visits to the gym i've grown to love soooooo much hmmm whats a girl to do? can i do it? will i do it? one can only hope. or ( Read more... )

i realized today while working out that the goals or expectations i have made for myself might be out of reach and most certianly out of grasp. i almost cried because of it. so what am i going to do? work harder faster and longer if i have too it aint over til its over!!!

Yep thats me an eternal nerd for life. cause i cant spread my social butterfly wings and flutter. that is the worst metaphor ever. IDK why i'm like that. I'm trapped within my own head and i cant escape cause i fear the unknown.

I wasnt able to talk to him today(mon)but i will do it tuesday(today) i have nothing left to lose!

SO i havent really heard much from momo king these days and i'm not gonna call her cause i'm always the one that has to call and most of the time she doesnt answer anyway. sooo i'm just gonna back away a little. I'm meeting new ppl trying to move forward instead of always being stuck behind. I've hung out w/ a lot of new ppl these week and i had a ( Read more... )

well everything is been going pretty ok. I'm still meeting new people or am just giving other people a chance in general. I went out with kiara amanda and heather today we ate at fridays it was nice to chill w/ other people outside of my oh so limited circle i am trying to expand on that one ( Read more... )

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My sister was telling me about an open casting call today at sunrise mall and i would have loved to go I really would have. That could have been my chance to sparkle, to shine to really see waht i was made of and I missed out on that chance. will there ever be others? was that my shot? was that my chance? I dont seriously think that would have made ( Read more... )

is always been summed up in a single question....
WHY CANT I....

Be pretty like dani
Be smater like Tish
Be creative like MOMO king
Be together like sherry
Be confident like Christina
Be more outgoing like Suzzanne
Be more i dont give a shit like Erica

BE ANYONE BUT ME
To hell w/ that bull!!!!!

B/c I am
PRETTY
SMART
CREATIVE
TOGETHER
CONFIDENT ( Read more... )

takin everything day by day.
I'm doing ok!