so i got a new watch for the third time. its strawberry shortcake. that health behavior change is going well i guess. i have no idea. i never have any idea. it seems like i get a new watch with a new friend. first erika and the barbie watch. then xan and the nemo watch. now .. well no one and strawberry shortcake. thats cool. anyway i think i ( Read more... )

i have some index cards and a purple pen on my coffee table and i decided a few nights ago that i should draw myself so tonight i grabbed one and i drew myself from a picture and it looks nothing like me which is ok but i tried something new a diffrent pose and surroundings and when iwas finished i was proud of my sketchy little nothingness and i ( Read more... )

friday there was some pretty fantastic hours and then most of saturday and then bam zane sucks at life and ruins her high on life attitude. that continues pretty much until now. yeah im depressed like a hoe. so shoot me already.

"...all alone. all alone. all alone. all alone. all alone. all alone. all alone. death."

"I lose a part of my mind each day, Depressing isn't it?"

"The truth? Slit wrists or sleeping pills."

"..., and I saw myself falling. Rotting. Dying."

"Are you going to happen to your world?"

"The real me is expressed through my right hand."

"Reality is ( Read more... )

Am I going to end up looking childish here? What a wasteland.

everyone has their little groups. I want mine to find me because im a sloth. thats my deadly sin. that and envy. I always want everyone elses lives.

I Love To See Things. because by seeing them I am experiencing them and feelings come from experiences. I love to see the puddle in the school yard in fourth grade. I pretended there was a reflection of a dragon in it somewhere. I looked for it all recess. I love to see movies about life and just follow the lives of these characters. People who ( Read more... )

tonight marks the 1 year mark since my dad fell down the stairs from being a drunk. judys christmas party. i was the bus girl or whatever you want to say. it was an easy 100 bucks. i havent seen anyone in two days and i like it. i have work all weekend and after school monday so i wont see any one til after then anyway really. i like it better this

i need to stop having thoughts. i just i screw things up and i get all stupid and girly and. he makes me feel like shit but i just keep seeing him. what do i think is going to happen? because im not romantically inclined so nothing because i suck. god just f u c k me.

x rockettsummer: hey you monkey face ( Read more... )