Predicaments of A Flushed Nature (2/2) [homestuck]
Predicaments of A Flushed Nature 2/2
author: crown_celestial
summary: Kanaya goes to Rose for her problems. [Kanaya/Vriska]
GA: Do You Think Its Stupid
GA: To Still Carry The Torch Of A Flushed Quadrant
GA: For A Dead Troll
TT: I wouldn't think it's stupid at all. In our culture it used to be norm never to take another partner if your first partner passes away.
TT: Of course, it's changed over the years, but I'm sure some people still feel as strongly as they did for a person they loved. Or, in your case, pitied.
GA: Its Just
GA: She Never Returned My Feelings
GA: She Has Never Felt Anything Concupiscent For Me
GA: And When We Were In An Pale Relationship
GA: It Always Felt Like She Took Me For Granted
TT: At which point any pity you felt for her should have flipped into hate.
TT: Or do I have such a basic idea of your quadrants? I'm afraid I can't fathom the depths of your troll nature.
GA: No
GA: You Are Doing Fine
GA: In Fact That Would Have Been A Proper Response
GA: Indeed It Would Have Been Better If I Simply Learned To Hate Her
GA: She Is Selfish And Cold And Dangerous
TT: A little bit like me, perhaps?
GA: Maybe
TT: Which is why you were drawn to me initially. Fascinating.
GA: I Thought We Were Talking About My Quadrants
GA: Not Me
GA: And You
TT: Well I would need to get into your head first before I can deal out my solution, Kanaya.
TT: Anyway, please go on.
GA: There Is Nothing Much Left To Go On About
GA: She Is Dead
GA: And Whatever Feelings I Had For Her Should Have Died With Her
GA: But
TT: But?
GA: But They Did Not
TT: Oh?
GA: She Was A Danger To Us All
GA: I Could Have Killed Her At That Moment
GA: But I Chose Not To
GA: I Did Not Want Her Blood On My Hands
TT: I gather you've killed before.
GA: We All Have
GA: Her Most Of All
GA: She Killed Many Trolls
GA: She Even Killed Aradia Before The Game
GA: I Always Knew How Dangerous She Was
GA: But I Never Did Anything
TT: That statement may not be entirely true. You were moirails, weren't you?
GA: I Was Not Being A Good Moirail
GA: I Was Always Wishing The Red Ran Deeper
GA: It Made Our Moiraillegiance A Sham
TT: Surely you're being too hard on yourself.
GA: I Do Not Know
GA: Even Karkat Seems To Be Doing A Better Job At Being A Moirail To Gamzee Than I Had Been To Vriska
TT: You can't compare your relationship to other people, Kanaya.
TT: And Karkat had better be a good moirail to Gamzee or you and Dave will have a competition on who can kill him first.
GA: That Is Exactly The Point
GA: Leaving Vriska Alive Was A Mistake Someone Else Would Pay For
GA: In This Case, Tavros
GA: But I Was Too Selfish To Do Anything
GA: I Just Did Not Wish To Be The One To Kill Her
GA: Because
GA: I Never
GA: Had Any Hate
GA: For Her
GA: And Killing Her Would Have Been The Ultimate Expression of Hate
GA: I Was Incapable Of Doing Such An Act
TT: I see.
TT: Perhaps this is why this pity is still strong in you.
TT: You have regrets of this nature, therefore it is difficult to let go of any red feelings you've had for her.
GA: Do You Really Think So
TT: It's possible.
TT: You say it was unrequited. It would be difficult to go on in your position if not for regret.
GA: I Think I See The Point You Are Trying To Make
TT: But it's not making you happy, I can tell.
TT: What would you like me to say, Kanaya?
TT: Would you prefer advice on how to get rid of these flushed feelings?
GA: Perhaps
GA: But I Am Aware Things Do Not Work In That Manner
GA: Am I Correct In This Assumption
TT: Yes, unfortunately.
TT: But you never know.
TT: You may have a chance to tell her these feelings.
GA: !
TT: If what I've seen in the future is correct, then we may be able to revive all the dead, and go on with our earlier lives.
GA: Oh
TT: You don't sound so enthusiastic about that.
GA: If We Resume Our Earlier Lives
GA: Then She And I Will Still Be In A Moiraillegiance
GA: And None Of This Would Have Happened
TT: I don't know if we'll be able to retain our memories of what happened in the game.
TT: But your feelings won't change.
TT: Your death and hers seem to have done nothing to it, so what else can?
GA: That May Be True
TT: It would be a second chance, Kanaya. You have nothing left to lose.
GA: But How Will I Recall All This
GA: And
GA: I Am Still At A Loss
GA: On What Method Is Best At Expressing How I Feel
GA: I Only Have Expertise In Being A Pale or Ashen Quadrantmate
GA: I Find It Difficult To Relay Any Flushed Feelings
TT: I'm sure you'll come up with an idea.
TT: We have three years, after all.
GA: I See
GA: Thank You, Rose
GA: My Assumptions Were Correct
GA: You Are The One Who Can Shed Light Into My Predicament
-- grimAuxiliatrix [GA] ceased trolling tentacleTherapist [TT] --
part 1 |||| epilogue
author: crown_celestial
summary: Kanaya goes to Rose for her problems. [Kanaya/Vriska]
GA: Do You Think Its Stupid
GA: To Still Carry The Torch Of A Flushed Quadrant
GA: For A Dead Troll
TT: I wouldn't think it's stupid at all. In our culture it used to be norm never to take another partner if your first partner passes away.
TT: Of course, it's changed over the years, but I'm sure some people still feel as strongly as they did for a person they loved. Or, in your case, pitied.
GA: Its Just
GA: She Never Returned My Feelings
GA: She Has Never Felt Anything Concupiscent For Me
GA: And When We Were In An Pale Relationship
GA: It Always Felt Like She Took Me For Granted
TT: At which point any pity you felt for her should have flipped into hate.
TT: Or do I have such a basic idea of your quadrants? I'm afraid I can't fathom the depths of your troll nature.
GA: No
GA: You Are Doing Fine
GA: In Fact That Would Have Been A Proper Response
GA: Indeed It Would Have Been Better If I Simply Learned To Hate Her
GA: She Is Selfish And Cold And Dangerous
TT: A little bit like me, perhaps?
GA: Maybe
TT: Which is why you were drawn to me initially. Fascinating.
GA: I Thought We Were Talking About My Quadrants
GA: Not Me
GA: And You
TT: Well I would need to get into your head first before I can deal out my solution, Kanaya.
TT: Anyway, please go on.
GA: There Is Nothing Much Left To Go On About
GA: She Is Dead
GA: And Whatever Feelings I Had For Her Should Have Died With Her
GA: But
TT: But?
GA: But They Did Not
TT: Oh?
GA: She Was A Danger To Us All
GA: I Could Have Killed Her At That Moment
GA: But I Chose Not To
GA: I Did Not Want Her Blood On My Hands
TT: I gather you've killed before.
GA: We All Have
GA: Her Most Of All
GA: She Killed Many Trolls
GA: She Even Killed Aradia Before The Game
GA: I Always Knew How Dangerous She Was
GA: But I Never Did Anything
TT: That statement may not be entirely true. You were moirails, weren't you?
GA: I Was Not Being A Good Moirail
GA: I Was Always Wishing The Red Ran Deeper
GA: It Made Our Moiraillegiance A Sham
TT: Surely you're being too hard on yourself.
GA: I Do Not Know
GA: Even Karkat Seems To Be Doing A Better Job At Being A Moirail To Gamzee Than I Had Been To Vriska
TT: You can't compare your relationship to other people, Kanaya.
TT: And Karkat had better be a good moirail to Gamzee or you and Dave will have a competition on who can kill him first.
GA: That Is Exactly The Point
GA: Leaving Vriska Alive Was A Mistake Someone Else Would Pay For
GA: In This Case, Tavros
GA: But I Was Too Selfish To Do Anything
GA: I Just Did Not Wish To Be The One To Kill Her
GA: Because
GA: I Never
GA: Had Any Hate
GA: For Her
GA: And Killing Her Would Have Been The Ultimate Expression of Hate
GA: I Was Incapable Of Doing Such An Act
TT: I see.
TT: Perhaps this is why this pity is still strong in you.
TT: You have regrets of this nature, therefore it is difficult to let go of any red feelings you've had for her.
GA: Do You Really Think So
TT: It's possible.
TT: You say it was unrequited. It would be difficult to go on in your position if not for regret.
GA: I Think I See The Point You Are Trying To Make
TT: But it's not making you happy, I can tell.
TT: What would you like me to say, Kanaya?
TT: Would you prefer advice on how to get rid of these flushed feelings?
GA: Perhaps
GA: But I Am Aware Things Do Not Work In That Manner
GA: Am I Correct In This Assumption
TT: Yes, unfortunately.
TT: But you never know.
TT: You may have a chance to tell her these feelings.
GA: !
TT: If what I've seen in the future is correct, then we may be able to revive all the dead, and go on with our earlier lives.
GA: Oh
TT: You don't sound so enthusiastic about that.
GA: If We Resume Our Earlier Lives
GA: Then She And I Will Still Be In A Moiraillegiance
GA: And None Of This Would Have Happened
TT: I don't know if we'll be able to retain our memories of what happened in the game.
TT: But your feelings won't change.
TT: Your death and hers seem to have done nothing to it, so what else can?
GA: That May Be True
TT: It would be a second chance, Kanaya. You have nothing left to lose.
GA: But How Will I Recall All This
GA: And
GA: I Am Still At A Loss
GA: On What Method Is Best At Expressing How I Feel
GA: I Only Have Expertise In Being A Pale or Ashen Quadrantmate
GA: I Find It Difficult To Relay Any Flushed Feelings
TT: I'm sure you'll come up with an idea.
TT: We have three years, after all.
GA: I See
GA: Thank You, Rose
GA: My Assumptions Were Correct
GA: You Are The One Who Can Shed Light Into My Predicament
-- grimAuxiliatrix [GA] ceased trolling tentacleTherapist [TT] --
part 1 |||| epilogue