[drabble] Longer than Forever
Title : Longer than forever
Author : lovu_lovu_aiba
Pairing : Sakuraiba
Rating : PG13
Genre : AU, romance, angst
Disclaimer : The boys aren’t mind, I really hope I own them tho xD
Summary : there is black and white, morning and night, and there are starts and ends…
Note : unbetaed
~*~
I knew this moment would come…
Sooner or later… and now was a bit too long from my prediction… way too long for a relationship without future, way too long for our love. Although I never thought loving him forever would be too long for me, I instead thought that forever was too short for us. I could love him longer than forever if it was possible. Forever was never be enough for me…
I remember clearly the day he confessed to me, in a gloomy and cloudy day on my room, he simply said, “I know we can’t last forever but I love you…”
Simple, realistic and hurtful…
I never be happier but I never be hurt this much before…
Then when that word slipped out from his lips, I wasn’t shocked, because I knew… this moment would come…
“I don’t want you to be hurt longer than this…”
But to be hurt to what?
To face our parents?
To face our friends?
Or the fact that I wouldn’t able give him a kid?
Or I would be hurt because I love him and I love our love too much?
There were so many things I wanted to ask to him… would he marry to someone? Would he forget about me? Would he move on easily? Would we forbid to meet later on? Would he let me to continue loving him?
The wind touched his hair slowly and the sunset effect made his eyes glistened in beautiful orange color. There was no smile in his face, there was nothing but sadness. Did you feel it as well? That strangled feeling on your throat? That pain like someone torn your heart into two? But I never needed an answer when I felt his palm touched my cheek slowly… I never needed an answer when a drop of tear fell down from the corner of his eyes… He never cried, nor a crybaby…
But he suddenly seemed so powerless like he always says when he embraced me between his arms, “I’m weak…”
Although I always be too clueless to understand or to take it serious, I never bother to hear his continuation, “…without you.”
Would anything change if I expressed my love more? If I tell him that I miss him so much? If I tell him how I need him more often? If we spent more time together?
But there would never be any answer for ‘if’, nothing more than a regret.
I knew this moment would come…
Sooner or later…
The last time he said, “I love you, Masaki…”
~*~
A/N : yayyy! I actually write something after so long! xD been really busy because work so I can’t really write lately! I hope I get enough saving so I can stop my work soon and back to fandom lol. Till then see you irregularly~ I'm really sorry it was short and emo, just bcoz I was lonely T.T
Also I'm sorry if the post seems messed, I used my bb since I have no inet at all T.T
p/s : If you read the noisy empty room and wait for continuation, I will try to write on my spare time but it’s kind of impossible so… please be forgive me for the postpone~ T^T
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Author : lovu_lovu_aiba
Pairing : Sakuraiba
Rating : PG13
Genre : AU, romance, angst
Disclaimer : The boys aren’t mind, I really hope I own them tho xD
Summary : there is black and white, morning and night, and there are starts and ends…
Note : unbetaed
~*~
I knew this moment would come…
Sooner or later… and now was a bit too long from my prediction… way too long for a relationship without future, way too long for our love. Although I never thought loving him forever would be too long for me, I instead thought that forever was too short for us. I could love him longer than forever if it was possible. Forever was never be enough for me…
I remember clearly the day he confessed to me, in a gloomy and cloudy day on my room, he simply said, “I know we can’t last forever but I love you…”
Simple, realistic and hurtful…
I never be happier but I never be hurt this much before…
Then when that word slipped out from his lips, I wasn’t shocked, because I knew… this moment would come…
“I don’t want you to be hurt longer than this…”
But to be hurt to what?
To face our parents?
To face our friends?
Or the fact that I wouldn’t able give him a kid?
Or I would be hurt because I love him and I love our love too much?
There were so many things I wanted to ask to him… would he marry to someone? Would he forget about me? Would he move on easily? Would we forbid to meet later on? Would he let me to continue loving him?
The wind touched his hair slowly and the sunset effect made his eyes glistened in beautiful orange color. There was no smile in his face, there was nothing but sadness. Did you feel it as well? That strangled feeling on your throat? That pain like someone torn your heart into two? But I never needed an answer when I felt his palm touched my cheek slowly… I never needed an answer when a drop of tear fell down from the corner of his eyes… He never cried, nor a crybaby…
But he suddenly seemed so powerless like he always says when he embraced me between his arms, “I’m weak…”
Although I always be too clueless to understand or to take it serious, I never bother to hear his continuation, “…without you.”
Would anything change if I expressed my love more? If I tell him that I miss him so much? If I tell him how I need him more often? If we spent more time together?
But there would never be any answer for ‘if’, nothing more than a regret.
I knew this moment would come…
Sooner or later…
The last time he said, “I love you, Masaki…”
~*~
A/N : yayyy! I actually write something after so long! xD been really busy because work so I can’t really write lately! I hope I get enough saving so I can stop my work soon and back to fandom lol. Till then see you irregularly~ I'm really sorry it was short and emo, just bcoz I was lonely T.T
Also I'm sorry if the post seems messed, I used my bb since I have no inet at all T.T
p/s : If you read the noisy empty room and wait for continuation, I will try to write on my spare time but it’s kind of impossible so… please be forgive me for the postpone~ T^T
Posted via m.livejournal.com.