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[crunchytacos]

shant and i have seen each other like, 2 times in the past couple months

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[sinfulscreens]

If you read my last really long post you will see that this is KIND OF the situation I was in...not so much that he was all jealous, but that he wanted to not be "official" but for me to stay commited...I broke things off after almost 2 years just this Thursday. hellloooo broken heart. :(

[crunchytacos]

i did read it, and it's very similar. he didn't want to be official but he wanted me to love him and no one else. ever. his family and friends have no idea who i even am and it's been like, 7 months. and everyone i know knew i was with someone. that's what normal people do. they tell people about their significant others. his excuse was that he is just a very closed person. fuuuck that. we don't deserve that shit when we are so willing to give 100%.

<3 goodbye broken heart, you will be mended and gone soon!

[sinfulscreens]

Before everyone one of his friends knew about me, his family too, but then it came to a point when his family refered to me as "Elliott's friend" when introducing me to people, and that was a blow to me. When I love someone I am DAMN proud of them, and making sure everyone knows it too....how could he love me and want to hide me, it hurt so much.

Tell me, were you in love with this boy? Did you let go of things regardless of loving him, because you figured it was the right thing to do? Because I am so afraid that I do not know how to move on, because I do in fact still love him and wish I could be with him, but not the "him" that he has become. I'm lost...

[crunchytacos]

exactly. i want to love him but it's not what's right for me. or him, even. it clearly isn't something their proud of.. when we are willing to shout it from a god damn mountain or something. i'm going to find someone who wants me, and loves me, and is proud, and wants everyone to know i'm his. and you will to. we can't dwell on the ones who fucked up.