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[crush_895]

ok so i think i've finally reached my limit on life. i hate it. i have no interest in anything useful and the jobs i can do i have no intersest in. i think it would be easier just to go buy a gun and shoot myself. my life is going nowhere. my brother and sister are doing what they want to do. but me being the retard of the family cant even wake up

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[phelanlov]

=( Sometimes it just takes time to find what you're supposed to do. Remember there are those with college educations and degrees that are no where in life. Just figure out what makes you happy, sometimes that takes time, and remember if anything that's what you have, time. I've been in that small hole you want to crawl in, and I've held that gun to my head. I know you've heard people say, "I understand." but I really do. You aren't completely alone. Don't compare yourself with your siblings, you're a completely different person. The world is a scary place, for all of us. Even scarier when you're alone.

I mentioned you recently in one of my recent previous posts. And I thought about you yesterday, I was going to call you but I wasn't sure that I really had anything to say.

I'd like it if we could hang out some time, let me know.

Miss ya. Oh, btw, Joe Berry says hi and so does Dennis. Take care, babe.

Look babe...

[pullmytrigger]

I'm not trying to sound harsh or judgmental and if you're going to give me that whole "you don't know what you're talking about because you're younger" shpeel you can save it, but life is never going to get any better unless you make it. Someone can tell you what to do until they're blue in the face and unless you decide that your life is going to go somewhere and then make it happen - chances are it probably won't. You want your life to change? Make it. Figure out what you want to do, go on a sabbatical if you have to, figure out how to make it happen and do it. I can believe that you can do it but it useless unless you believe it. Unless you do something about it - get used to this, it'll be your life.

I'll get off my soapbox for the time being. Easier said then done, eh?

Re: Look babe...

[crush_895]

what does you being younger have anything to do with this? i know i have to do things, i was bored, in a shitty mood and decided to bitch a little. i'm now waiting for tuesday to come around so i can goto the halloween sp? horror nights auditon then if i get that i'll stay on as a character, and hopefully go full time. it was nice to hear from you though and know your still alive. i know the phone goes both ways. and you've probly been working. ttyl.