OUTBREAK WAS AMAZING.
THESE GUYS IN FRONT OF ME&STEPH WERE OUT OF CONTROL.
&EVERYONE WAS IN DTN SHIRTS,
IT MADE ME SO FREAKING DEPRESSED.
LOUISVILLE IS FUCKING SO COOL THOUGH.
IT'S SO MUCH BETTER THAN INDY.
WE WALKED AROUND FOR ABOUT 2 HOURS,
THEN CAME BACK HOME.

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TODAY I WENT TO THE BOYS' SHOW WITH MADDIE &SUZIE.
THEY WERE AMAZING & BEING WITH THE GIRLS ( Read more... )

WELL, MY LIFE WAS NEARLY OVER TODAY.
ENGLISH IS SCARING ME RIGHT NOW.
IF SHE DOESN'T PASS ME, I SWEAR TO GOD.
SHE NEEDS TO GO TO HELL.

AND 10 MINUTES WITH HIM IS BETTER THAN NONE, RIGHT?
I'M NOT EVER COMPLAINING ABOUT NOT SEEING HIM.
EVEN THOUGH I SECRETLY WANT TO.
BUT, WHEN HE WANTS TO/CAN HANG OUT, HE CAN TELL ME.
OTHERWISE.. MY MOUTH IS SHUTT.
BC LAST ( Read more... )

SO, MY MOM IS CURRENTLY NOT SPEAKING TO ME.
THAT'S AWESOME....

YESTERDAY ME&NIKKI WENT TO BROADRIPPLE.
GOT TWO NEW CDS, WHICH I LOVE.
GOT MY SEPTUM DONE.
TODAY HUNG OUT WITH JESS.
DIDN'T TAKE PICTURES. I GUESS THAT'S OVER NOW.
SO, WE WORKED ON HER SENIOR BOOK,
& FOUND HILARIOUS PICTURES OF US
& NEARLY FELL OVER LAUGHING SO HARD.
FRIDAY IS FUCKING OUTBREAK & ( Read more... )

MY MOM MAKES ME FEEL SO UGLY.

SO. WE'RE TOGETHER. AGAIN? WE SUCK.
BUT I'M HAPPY. I HOPE HE IS.
LEAVING WILL BE HARD, BUT THERE'S TIME.
LAST NIGHT WAS HARD,
BUT FELT NICE AT THE SAME TIME?
BLAHHH

HANGING OUT WITH NIKKI TODAY,
SINCCCEE AVIANOS' IS CANCELLED.
I HOPE STEPH HAS FUN AT HER CHOIR THING! :)
I WISH THE WEATHER DIDN'T SUCK.
ALSO, I'M FUCKING FREEZING IN THIS BASEMENT.

PROM WAS A LITTLE LAME.
WOKE UP TOO DAMN EARLY, DUE TO EMMA (still love you)
STARED AT THE WALL UNTIL 3.
GOT READY.
WENT TO EMMA'S.
TOOK TOO MANY PICTURES.
DINNER AT HARD ROCK.
PROM AT THE SCOTTISH RITE CATHEDRAL (SP)
HANGING OUT WITH EVERYONE WAS A LOT OF FUN,
BUT EVERYTHING ELSE WAS LAME AS SHIT.
AND HOW CLICHE, I MISSED TIM THE WHOLE TIME.
WENT ( Read more... )

THAT'S NO WAY TO LIVE, ALL TANGLED UP LIKE BALLS OF STRING.
AND WE WOKE AT DAWN & WATCHED THE SUN GLIDE OVER THE HILL.
I JUST SAID THE FIRST THREE WORDS THAT POPPED into my head.
LET ME OFF THE BUS. I'M TIRED & SORE. I SHOULD PROBABLY CHANGE CLOTHES.
THE CIRCUITS ARE BLOWN, MY WOMAN IS COLD.
OUR CHILDREN ARE STONED & WORTHLESS.
THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR ( Read more... )

THE REASONS KEEP CHANGING.
WAS I ASKING FOR TOO MUCH?
IT SEEMS SO.
WE'LL SEE HOW THINGS GO NOW.

OTHER THAN THAT, STEPHANIE'S PRESENT IS GOING TO BE FUCKING INCREDIBLE.
AND, I WENT SHOPPING YESTERDAY & BOUGHT TWO NEW THINGS FOR MYSELF.
I WANT TO GO TO BROADRIPPLE SOON.
I NEED CDS & SOME MORE CLOTHES? YES.
ALSO, PROM IS SATURDAY. THIS SHOULD BE INTERESTING.
I ( Read more... )

WHAT DO I DO NOW?

EDIT:
I FEEL SO EMPTY.
THE WAY THE WHOLE SITUATION WAS HANDLED,
I DON'T THINK I DESERVED.
HE DOESN'T EVEN FEEL A GOD DAMN THING.
IT TOOK NOTHING FOR HIM TO DO.
HE DOESN'T EVEN CARE.
HE HASN'T TALKED TO ME IN 7 DAYS,
WHAT'S GOING TO CHANGE NOW?
NOTHING.
I LOST A FRIEND IN THIS TOO.

IF I TELL MYSELF HE'S NOT COOL,
MAYBE THAT WILL WORK.
WHAT THE FUCK!
I KNEW HE WASN'T GOING TO CALL,
BUT I WAS HOLDING MY PHONE ALL NIGHT..
JUST IN CASE..

ME&NIKKI ARE GOING TO BROADRIPPLE TODAY.
BASICALLY... WE'RE BACK, FULL FORCE
AND NO ONE CAN STOP US!