Fuck FUCK fuck! i really screwed up again ( Read more... )

Last Friday i couldn't wait to end. it was one of those days you eye the clock and pray for time to pass. normally during a vacation i try to stretch my time and even though Mat had only been gone two weeks it seemed like months. i know i sound pathetic. i heard his car screach to a halt, and i waved then ran and jumped on him. i dont think i said ( Read more... )

Guess who's not sleeping alone tonight ( Read more... )

Woke up at 11:30
Then sunbathed on the deck
read a few chapters of my book,
"Olivia Joules and the Overactive Imagination."
Then went to La Festa for dinner
got a Greek pizza with
olives, feta, ham and artichokes
Thinking about unpacking some more...
and Bob won't be home till Monday
...so he says
and i didnt have to work.
life aint so bad.

I am officially moving out to my uncles house before July 1st. i was so reluctant to do so because i hate change, and i was used to months of routine that became comforting. and these things i will miss..like watching adult swim, and going to Wendy's late night and in general being a builiding where neighbors could pop their heads in just to say ( Read more... )

what an interesting father's day. mat left today, i know ive been writing that for weeks now...I took pictures, we all hugged, and i watched his car drive away. and as he gave me one last hug i saw his eyes look glassy and misty, and i choked on my words. he waved and his car drove off never to return. we all stood there in awe ( Read more... )

Mat leaves in 3 days. I've been counting down the days..and trying to picture life without him. I didn't want a relationship for the pain it would cause in the end. He has an internship and is going back home. I said I'd visit him before i left for mine. Today I'm skipping macroeconomics and going into Boston. What we'll do and where we go I have ( Read more... )

class is out early. i plan to get my hair cut, a day of beauty would do me good. I saw my mom in work last night and she got me a new debit card. and a card from my grandma. with a little cake on it which i thought was cute. I'm going to Crecent City Bistro for dinner. I wonder who calls and remembers my birthday...I hope at least two people. That' ( Read more... )

I ate dinner at my restaurant. It was nice having the waitstaff suck up to me because I'm used to their demands and impatience. The owner was there. I thought i would get a discount, but no. i brought mom for mother's day since she's been busy, with my sister and all. Ray got a new car. she bought it, a 97 Civic. im happy for her but ive been ( Read more... )

what brought us together ( Read more... )