we talked withoit fighting, this is grand, i feel so happy now, it's kinda scary , i hope my mood stays for tomorrow but i gotta go now to sleep and then wake up early for this play thing , i'll update more tomorrow but for now ... it;'s goodbye

♥
k-lee

why do you do this?

family theripy didn't go super well today, but at least it wasn't focused on me. even though i did blowup last nite, i kno that i'm too much like my parents, i have bits of both mixed in with me. tomorrow i have this model thing for the uw that my mom told me about, i might bring one of my friends with me, they take your pic and measurement and if ( Read more... )

i've lost my chance to be sane, and now sanity just float alittle outside my reach, i'm stuck, and i don't even try to move anymore, and i try hard not to think, but i fail at that.. i have to go rip apart my arm, once i figure out how to i'll post some pics, so all of you can see why i wonder why everyone thinks i'm picture perfect

i need to see the blood spill out of my wrists or at least somewhere, to feel the pain the brings tears to my eyes, and floods me with overpowering emotions that make me wild and untamable, i need the sparks to run through my body, to consume me whole and to... g2g

it's ending i can feel it, she knos it too.
i need an escape
i need to leave
and this time for good
i can't fake being happy anymore
i need to call someone