well... i understand u all now...i know how u are now...i sit here all day and no phone call from a single one of u...ya i know the phone works both ways blah blah blahy...but why bother calling if u dont call me...ya i had a party for my b-day the other day and the only ones that came are the ones that actally call me...yep you are all prob pissed ( Read more... )

im going iceskating tonight and i hope it changes this horrible mood i have been in. No one but me and jon are gonna be there but thats fine i just wanna get out of this hell whole of a house and see ppl other then who i see at school and home. It would be nice. Just one night without any drama or yelling or fighting or cutting. Just one fucking ( Read more... )

everything is so fucked up right now. Barely any of my friends are talking to me or danni its like since nikki hates us the rest of them do. It makes no fucking sense but whatever im sick of trying to be nice to everyone and shit. Ya sometimes i wish i fit the mold they want me to but i just cant its not who i am. Im about ready just to lieave and ( Read more... )

today is my b-day. not very interesting. I went to breakfast with bert and hollie. I didnt really get much but i did get this Care Bear i love. Its Cheer Bear.I love it!!! x89436598743265439826574325. Its so great! thanks baby x9823486506809657086348704587648798746385. Its going right on my bed and its gonna sleep there every night lol. Yep its ( Read more... )

my knife is calling me... i can feel it... im resisting it but i cant it just screams louder...i dont wanna disappoint to but i fear im gonna...Im doing good but my knife just keeps screaming...CAN SOMEONE SHUT IT UP PLEASE!?!?!?! I locked it away and threw the key away and gave the other key to my friend liz but its not working i just wanna grab a ( Read more... )

today might be the last time i get on for a long long long time. My life is just getting so screwed up and school is too. After april vacay my mom is gonn ahve a teacher meeting with the school and shit. She already talked to ms courtny and she told my mom everything that i have been doing so i might be grounded. Oh well its not like it matters ( Read more... )

Take the quiz: "What piercing are you?"

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nikki hates me now... thats just great. Im so sick of people getting mad over stupid shit. GET OVER IT NIKKI IT WAS JUST A TAP KISS AND ITS NOT LIKE IM GOING OUT WITH YOU!! i had to say that cuz im sick of people jumping down my throat when something happens. They all need to grow up and relieze that people (expecailly me cuz im an idiot) make ( Read more... )

i know i have been neglating this thing but i just have been busy and nothing seems important to right but here is part of the convo i had with jonathn today i thought was cute ( Read more... )

Pat came up yesterday for a little while. It was cool. We don’t really hang out a lot outside of school. He told me some things like before he got with this new gf and before I was with Jonathan he was thinking about asking me out again. He also doesn’t think me and Jonathan are going to last long cuz we always see each other and he thinks that we ( Read more... )