Kenn got my letter and had a big nervous breakdown on me. I don't know why he thinks I don't care about him. -_- It's just hard when he is so far away ( Read more... )

Missed a class, missed guitar. Started talking to Ryan Lee again, maybe I'll see him at Mira. Went to take my GED, goddamn people there were stupid, except for me. >.> Honestly, though. I wish I had done that 4 years ago. But maybe not, because then I wouldn't have met some very important people in my life. The fact still stands that the test was ( Read more... )

I wish I was the same person I was 2 years ago.

So last nite my meds made me absolutely FREAK out, I was shaking uncontrollably and bouncing and even though I knew I was doing it I couldnt stop. Im still shaking this morning, but I dont know if thats from being hungry or the medication. Its pretty intense, last nite I was having random outbursts of laughter and facial twitches too, I found out ( Read more... )

Man. I forgot how much I love this band, despite the fact that they are ultra pussy. They are fucking great ( Read more... )

Today I used my first sick day, early yes? I could have worked, I'm sure, but I was tired and had the beginnings of a stomach ache, so I'm going back on my tummy meds. Then my mom went through my Zoloft to see if I'd been taking it and found about 2 months worth of pills and yelled at me >( So I cleaned a bit today, now Im drawing and tomorrow I ( Read more... )

So every time I think I dont want to have anything to do with friends or people, I hang out with Ben and Matt and change my mind. Ben came over in Irenes car and we hung out for a bit, then we went and picked up Matt, and went over to Submarina and I got to meet Sondra finally. I would have been more outgoing and talkative towards her but I was ( Read more... )

I don't know why I bother getting close to anybody. Always get my heartbroken. Whatever, I just fucking give up on having friends, honestly. I'll work and go to school and continue to be apathetic about everything, and then one day I'll die old and alone, and that's just fucking fine ( Read more... )

And that time was...this whole past 2 months or so ( Read more... )

My mom is cool because she runs out of gas a block from our house and then we have to wait an hour for Triple A even though they said theyd only take a half hour. YEAH. It was way rad. My mom is so cool ( Read more... )