that's what he said to me when we woke up this morning. He is so cute! I really like him and it kinda scares me.

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That's all I want to say. I guess I should say that my grandpa died Monday night and the funeral was today and that I hate stupid ass bitches who make up terminal illnesses for themselves and convince completely amazing guys to marry them. On a different note, I talked to him again. I call him when I am really bothered by things and I don't know ( Read more... )

Damnit! I think being around Katie and Brian made me sick because they have both been sick. Yuck! I hate this, I have horrible cramps and I feel like I can't breathe. On a good note, I talked to him again and it made me feel much better. I was still crying when we got off the phone but it is better to know that this time I got to say my piece ( Read more... )

Just when I thought I was okay, he would call me. He would call me and say "I'm sorry, I miss you." I should have never answered the phone. Now, I am so irritated that I can't think straight and I keep crying for no reason. He took me for granted and treated me like shit but for some reason I still feel like he deserves justification. Why??? ( Read more... )

Today when I was driving to work, I realized just how beautiful the Old West End is. It was once the most impressive part of a striving industrial city that has gone so far down hill and I just don't understand why. I honestly must say that I love my new home, even though it is considered the "hood." I just can't believe how much it looked down ( Read more... )

So, I moved yesterday into a house with my friend Jessica. First thing we did as roommates: Bought plywood for a beer pong table and had a party to celebrate my moving in. Drank a lot of beer last night, don't remember much, people had sex in my bathroom, the hard wood floors are now very sticky from all the spilled beer. I don't really have ( Read more... )

I hate the holidays! I feel like shit and I keep crying because that's what Christmas does to me. I miss people and that makes me sad. I want to move on but I can't. Why do I still care about him when he obviously doesn't care about me? I'm trying to meet new people and hang out with different people but whenever I hang out with a new guy I ( Read more... )

From here on out I will be hibernating. Wake me up when the snow melts and temperature rises, preferably sometime in March before the Deftones concert because I promised my sister I would take her to that. I guess this is Good Night.

Yes, all I want right now is to run. I want to run far, far away. I want to go to a place where I know no one, where no one knows me and I can be alone and concentrate on my work. It upsets how I have not created on anything since graduation. I mean, I have not been completely unproductive but I need to be creating. I am so busy trying to show ( Read more... )