i don't know what i've been doing these past few weeks or whatever. I can't remember anything. I haven't been having fun times with friends like last year, and courtney completely out of nowhere seemed to bring it up. Last year, though everything was hard, and i was down, and drugs, i had the best time of my life. Staying up, sneeking out, ( Read more... )

im at my dads. It's cold. My weekend has been a mess and yet perfect. Friday was homecoming i ended up working and then going to the game. Everyone was there and everyone was basically on some kind of drug. hah. Anyway, chris and me ended up picking michelle and some other girl up before we went to the game. They got one of their friends i ( Read more... )

you know it doesn't matter what you say to anyone anymore, what you do, or what you think. It doesn't matter if you spend all day thinking of the perfect words to tell someone, because no matter how perfectly things may just be, in the end, it just isn't going to matter. In the end nothings going to matter, and everyone is just going to be left ( Read more... )

So friday chris came and got me from work at like 830, we quick went back to my house and i finished packing some shit for the weekend. We went and got mike and left for syracuse. The way down there was alright, i was wayy to hyper, and we all just sang to songs off of chris's i pod. And i so found my On broken wings cd in his car, that made me ( Read more... )

its like 345 about, i'm home which is weird. I'm never home, or if i am, someone else is usually here with me. Anyway, i've been reconstructing my life, sometimes i subconsiciously sp?? do it. It's kind of fucked up when your own best friend doesn't even wish you a happy birthday. All last weekend kate said she'd hang out with me and we'd have ( Read more... )

so far my weeks been alright. I'm pretty sick and its that annoying kind of headcold that just drains you. Good news though, i'm most likely going to get accepted into the school i wanted which is sweet. Chris came over last night, hes adorable. My dads coming like soon, like nowish to pick me up to meet his new gf. It kind of sucks because i ( Read more... )

I'm happy for the most part considereing Mike got arrested, i'm already begingnig to fail some classes, i'm short and uhhh, well jeeze thats it. I'm just beyond so fucking happy right now. seriously

I can't wait to just get this all over with. One more year, thats it. Schools the same like always, i don't even feel any different from last year. Last year things were so much better, and i realized that this year flat out will just suck, no matter what grade im in, or classes. Just everything i'm in doesn't interest me anymore, i want to ( Read more... )

so i've been stoned for umm 3 days in a row now. Fun stuff. Work on a sunday though, and the day before labor day, ugh. I need a new bowl, and school shopping, and haircut/dye. Hah. ohh boy

well that party i went too for pat, it ended up being shitty and yet okay. Doug pissed me off the entire time especially with the whole deal with him quitting smoking. I mean i don't care if he smokes one a day or something like that, but when he lights up one after another right in front of me, thats just gayy. So while he was out smoking and ( Read more... )