I don't understand im always there when needed but i am ignored, quite a confusing concept but i'm okay with it for some reason. gah this is weird and i don't know why..i wish it was how it used to be.

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i amdf so fucked up i cant imhaine whatig img gonnafa fucjmin do. tomkorrow im fuckion workiong 34-11 and itds gopnna guckcin s8ucjk,. dude bud se;dect is the fuckin shit wow im can fuckin fread that. so i fuckin amd ilikeing life right now. im ptretthy mcuh oblivious to what is gopibn ion right noirw. til next time, peace nigaaaaaaaaagassssssss

today i am 18, i can't wait to buy a fuckin lottery ticket.

Gillete sent me a razor, thanks for your support. lol

Tonight was mother fucking crazy. Sam had a party and that shit was awesome. Naked bitches all over the place, girls diking out. Shit was hot. Bill lost a bet by putting icy-hot on his nuts. He was grindin his shit on this naked ass girl, shit was hot nigga! Joe costa is a trip. What a man to party with.

i don't know what to do or think.
this has really made me think, i'm better off by myself. i always have been an independent thinker.
what am i supposed to think about this shit, i have nobody to talk to about it.
it's probably not worth it.

fuck it.

i've lost 15lbs since i've been sick. i should just die, i feel miserable as soon as i wake up. miserable all the time. looking on the not so bright side, i installed my XM radio stuff today, it's nice. and i refuse to do a blood test.

why can't i feel better. jesus christ this sucks. i wish my head would fall off.
i get migraines from listening to loud noises, it sucks.
i want to sleep
i want summer to come.

i feel like it was the biggest waste of time, but it wasn't...i think. I really fucking hate myself. i don't want to do anything. i want to fall of the earth, and........die.

i feel so fucking shitty. i don't understand and quite honestly i don't know if i ever will. i should just stop caring but it hurts..