keep me caged and free the beast
yea so life is alrite again. kind of. more like fine. lots of bullshit but lots of lovely to go with it. it's a balance and it's working so far. i've been taking pictures like a madman...or woman. just faces of the people i see the most. i love to capture faces. those looks that you see everyday that mean something to you but you can never quite get it on film. the little things like they way someones eyes are when they look at you and you know what they're thinking or that face you see everyday that just has CRAMER written all over it. it's beautiful and lovely. i hide behind the camera more and more often to fit the pieces back together again. i'm not quite there yet. it'll take some time. but i have patience i guess. i don't really have any other choice in the matter. someone very close to me described me as a puzzle the other day that got un-assembled somehow. he said i need to be put back together. it depressed the hell out of me...but it was true. i have to start thinking again about things in my life instead of hiding from them. i gotta step up and just go for it. i have to make it right again. and make more hard choices for the better. if you ask me it sucks. but eh. i'll deal. as always.
i just re read all that and it was...interesting. all i wanted to do was say a quick hello. oh well.
love you all
<3