Let it rain, I don't care.
I spent an hour at Target trying to decide what to make for dinner because I'm so fucking indecisive. And that's basically where I stand in life, at this very moment.
Last night I hung out with Dave (and some of his friends at a bar/grill). Yes, that Dave. The one I made out with. The one I almost slept with. The one I shouldn't even be talking to anymore. Does it make me the most horrible person ever that I still want to communicate with him?
I'm lacking a sensitivity chip.
Whatever the hell he sees in me, I don't understand. He's a good guy. I really like him, and wouldn't mind having him as a friend. But is that possible? Probably not. There's too much flirting, and teasing, and toying around. Note to self: stop being a fucking wench.
Jacob and I are due for another talk 'cause I can't keep my shit in order. I wish I were a better person. This isn't me, what happened? Where did I go wrong? My relationship means the world to me, yet I continue to let outside factors interfere in the most negative ways.
It'd be a whole lot easier if I just let this whole Dave thing go, but obviously, I haven't been able to. And eventually, I believe that it'll get me into trouble. I'm being so unfair.
Don't you love these pleasant updates? Thanks for listening, and for any words of wisdom that you may have for me.
Last night I hung out with Dave (and some of his friends at a bar/grill). Yes, that Dave. The one I made out with. The one I almost slept with. The one I shouldn't even be talking to anymore. Does it make me the most horrible person ever that I still want to communicate with him?
I'm lacking a sensitivity chip.
Whatever the hell he sees in me, I don't understand. He's a good guy. I really like him, and wouldn't mind having him as a friend. But is that possible? Probably not. There's too much flirting, and teasing, and toying around. Note to self: stop being a fucking wench.
Jacob and I are due for another talk 'cause I can't keep my shit in order. I wish I were a better person. This isn't me, what happened? Where did I go wrong? My relationship means the world to me, yet I continue to let outside factors interfere in the most negative ways.
It'd be a whole lot easier if I just let this whole Dave thing go, but obviously, I haven't been able to. And eventually, I believe that it'll get me into trouble. I'm being so unfair.
Don't you love these pleasant updates? Thanks for listening, and for any words of wisdom that you may have for me.