sometimes its get lonely, you know, just sitting here it feels. it feels like time doesn't move for me. most of the times, i could care less. but tonight, i feel alone. but there's a reason for everything, there's a reason why nothing works out for me. mostly its because i get like this, and from observing a friend more indecisive than myself ( Read more... )

christmas eve is today ( Read more... )

always love, hate will get you every time.

I realized what "was wrong" with me, and the irony of it is,
"what's wrong with me" is that nothing is wrong with >ME.

who really determines if someone is crazy or a genius? is there really a distinction between the two at all? maybe soceity calls people "crazy" because they are not the "genius" that society is looking for. Maybe crazy people just see things "normal" people don't. I don't know- just something i've been thinking about, is something really insane ( Read more... )

no one really likes anyone it seems. I HATE THE WINTER. i never can keep it together, fucking hate this season, except christmas. When I'm older, moving west and south.

jenner's going away party. then mall with nicole. and spent alot of money on peoples' presents, including two things for myself, and i still need something for my dad and nick. and owe nicole $3. anyways i come home, apparently its like party at my house. a few whores and some dudes. reaks of weed. i say hi to one kid, he's amazed that my ( Read more... )

its like a sudden wave of emotions and thoughts. ive been so used to practice, school and random other things. and all of a sudden, wow i have free time. time to think. i don't know if i like it or not ( Read more... )

What the fuck am i doing wrong. Its so fucking frustrating really.
Someone please tell me, what the fuck is wrong with me.
im really close to shooting for 2nd rate. but i really dont want to.

i dont know the words to desribe what i'm feeling.
doubt anyone would even understand either = /.

p.s. vote:
should i get a haircut or not.

its never fails to prove anything other than benifitial to be an arrogant asshole. i kind of like it.

nice weekend. alot of soberness, community service and finishing the book London. and the play on saturday with dana and greg and raj and kristi and later jess. i've never laughed so much for a play. it was a pretty sick show. you come out like you're messed up.