omg
im such a fucking dumbass!!
i so almost lost my girlfriend today! omg.. im such an idiot.. i like cursed amber out.. told her to go fuck herself.. threw her keys at her and told her to get the hell out and shit.. omg... WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?! this is the exact reason... im chilling the fuck out with the drugs.. i got loaded and just fucking went off on the girl that showers me with all her time and love and energy.
im so lucky she didnt break up with me.. cuz i know if it was the other way around id probably lose it and break up with her.. but we talked about it for an hour on the phone and she isnt mad anymore.. but now she doesnt want to jump into meeting any of my family and stuff.. which is respectable...
but she is coming up to new orleans with me for dav's sleepover friday night to meet... :: dum dum dummmm :: the exes... she'll prolly meet jen, rae, blue and god knows who else of my exfriends and ex-girlfriends...
am i nervous about it? not really.. ambers laid back and she'll play it cool.. and besides she knows about a lot of the stupid shit ive done in the past.
man... i really fucked up tonight..
i seriously have to make it up to her..
i mean i started a little bit already. i promised her that from now on i'll only get fucked up, if she's going to get messed up too. and she's one of those ppl that only do it a few times a month.. so im going to cut back a fuck of a lot..
i think im going to go buy her a bunch of flowers and a teddy bear or something.. i dont know.. but i gotta figure out something. and its got to be super sweet..
god im a fucking idiot...
well as icing on the top of today's cake.. my fuckin truck broke down... so now i get to figure out what the hell is wrong with it...
another headache i seriously dont want to deal with...
i dont know whats on my mind really right now.. im still trying to get un-high.. but i cant stop thinking about amber.. tonights only the SECOND night.. weve been without each other since we got together.. so i feel so.. out of place right now... i miss my baby girl!
ill be happy after work tomorrow when we're together again..
i so almost lost my girlfriend today! omg.. im such an idiot.. i like cursed amber out.. told her to go fuck herself.. threw her keys at her and told her to get the hell out and shit.. omg... WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?! this is the exact reason... im chilling the fuck out with the drugs.. i got loaded and just fucking went off on the girl that showers me with all her time and love and energy.
im so lucky she didnt break up with me.. cuz i know if it was the other way around id probably lose it and break up with her.. but we talked about it for an hour on the phone and she isnt mad anymore.. but now she doesnt want to jump into meeting any of my family and stuff.. which is respectable...
but she is coming up to new orleans with me for dav's sleepover friday night to meet... :: dum dum dummmm :: the exes... she'll prolly meet jen, rae, blue and god knows who else of my exfriends and ex-girlfriends...
am i nervous about it? not really.. ambers laid back and she'll play it cool.. and besides she knows about a lot of the stupid shit ive done in the past.
man... i really fucked up tonight..
i seriously have to make it up to her..
i mean i started a little bit already. i promised her that from now on i'll only get fucked up, if she's going to get messed up too. and she's one of those ppl that only do it a few times a month.. so im going to cut back a fuck of a lot..
i think im going to go buy her a bunch of flowers and a teddy bear or something.. i dont know.. but i gotta figure out something. and its got to be super sweet..
god im a fucking idiot...
well as icing on the top of today's cake.. my fuckin truck broke down... so now i get to figure out what the hell is wrong with it...
another headache i seriously dont want to deal with...
i dont know whats on my mind really right now.. im still trying to get un-high.. but i cant stop thinking about amber.. tonights only the SECOND night.. weve been without each other since we got together.. so i feel so.. out of place right now... i miss my baby girl!
ill be happy after work tomorrow when we're together again..