Comments | cuiel_rilwen: How come everything happens at the same time?

cuiel_rilwen

How come everything happens at the same time?

Dec 28, 2009 00:23

Hello all. :) I've been absent. Both in body and mind. Hardly anyone in here to read this journal anymore, not sure why I write this. I won't delete it tho. Too much history in here ( Read more... )

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ladyithildiel December 28 2009, 12:33:11 UTC

*cuddles tightly*That's some massive news, my sweet one!:)So glad to read them, though I am sorry for him...I hope he comes around, else I just hope tyou can move on and, indeed, make new bonds.You're such a magnificent person, so sweet and caring and giving,you deserve nothing but the best!:)I hope the new archers are going to be exactly what you need, an exciting new family!;)

*glomps*

cuiel_rilwen December 29 2009, 20:05:28 UTC

Massive hehehe yeah...that's how it gets when one fails to write updates right?

Thing is...its so hard to move on while I have to be around him. So it seems the best thing I can do is hope that I can avoid that.

Thanks for the sweet words hunni. I've been slacking in answering to everyone's entries and here you are, cheering me on. I'll be more of a nuisance in the future, I promise. :) *hugs back*

cassandria December 29 2009, 14:33:56 UTC

Ditto what Ithil said! I wish you luck too sweetness. It sounds so exciting! Don't you give him the satisfaction of even a thought. ;)
*cuddles*

cuiel_rilwen December 29 2009, 20:19:19 UTC

Thanks sweetie. :) It is exciting and scary at the same time. I can't know what will happen, if something good will come of it or if I'll just have to accept that there's no place for me there. In which case I suppose archery is a no-go.

I give him plenty of thought but I don't think to his satisfaction. In earnest I suppose he'd rather I didn't think of him at all. Maybe he thinks I want the close friendship resurrected...something I in fact find highly unlikely to happen. I don't harbor any illusions, I just wish to be treated as any other up there at the least...so I can shoot. There are other people in the club who I can talk to...it just gets so forced and unnatural when he leaves the conversation the minute I arrive.

Sometimes I wish my heart was more fickle. Certainly then I wouldn't care.