WHY?!

[culinary_chick]

DAMNIT!!! AGAIN!!! why am i doing this?? im just making myself more miserable by bringing my hopes up... i wish it would all just change!! i dont wanna feel this anymore... its obviously usless... you think youre getting close, then all of a sudden you get slapped in the face, even tho a small part of you knew it was coming

Comments

Re: i hate you !!!!!!! ..................................................(not really)

[culinary_chick]

i like your comments, cathy... they makes me feel special that someone as cool as you actually cares! luv yas!!!

[anonymous]

maybe you should just come right out and tell the person. that might help or type it in ur lj! (or do they read ur lj?)

er...

[culinary_chick]

why must people leave anonymous comments? grr...
and well, if i thot that i should tell the person, i would have already... i dont wanna just come out and say it... cuz they might even know already... i dont know... but this person is pretty smart, so i hope they would have figured it out already... and even so... there is something thats kinda in the way of all of this... and i cant do anything about that, so thats part of my frustration... thats why i just want SOMETHING to change, i dont care what

hey

[crazzzyone86]

hi, im new and i came across your journal when i was searching random and i thought that we had a lot in common! i think that everyone at one time has felt the same way as you and i agree that when school starts that it probobly will be different, but if its not, and you still want something to change, then you need to take charge and make it change! lol. i dont know, you dont have to listen to me, i just thought that i could help ya! oh yea, if you dont mind im gonna add you as a friend cause i dont have a lot on lj, but if you want to add me back thatd be awesome! *Kelli*

Re: hey

[culinary_chick]

yeah, sure ill add ya! a new person for me to get to know! and yeah, it is always good to know im not the only one... well, it obviously sucks, but you know what i mean!!
*Jo

[band_loser_55]

hey jo, why wont you talk to me anymore? seriously ive tryed so hard to make the effort or whatever and you still wont, you dont even return my smiles anymore. this is really killing me theres so much drama going on, why should we get seperated. we were so perfect together....in the most non-lesbian way of course.....but i miss you tons

[culinary_chick]

kt, i just had to get away... some people may be able to tolerate it, but i just could not stand the quote unquote drama... i hate it and think its the most stupid crap ever! so ive been trying to stay away from band drama carriers, and most of band itself... ive been sinking myself in with other people so i could for once not have to worry about anything at all. like today, i sat with my friend kevin and his fellow football players during lunch today, rather than finding some band people to sit with... and it was so nice! we talked and laughed and it had nothing to do with band or band people! and thats just all i needed... i still love band, of course... but i couldnt stand the band peoples drama anymore and just- ahh!! i like not having to take sides... you gotta understand...

[band_loser_55]

joleen....you're right...i think everyone in band should stay away from each other for about a week.....lol you relized that band drama is stupid!! and it is...i knew that but i kept getting pulled in...maybe i should do that and go find some new crowd of friends instead of just band friends....i mean not like that but i mean i already have other friends but just as close...i don't know....you're great and i still know how you feel...more then ever now that i know who you're talking about...

[band_loser_55]

who was it anyway? heh