Man I only really come on here once a year lol..

anyways things have been hecktik.. and this is kinda a unknown journal that NO one but me knows about it.. unless a friend comes accross it!

this one kinda tells how I really feel..
as u may tell Ive been fucked around more times then one, and it just seems the same old fucked shit that I have grew up ( Read more... )

AVRIL LAVIGNE LYRICS

"I Can Do Better"

Uh, yeah you can do it

I didn't give a damn what you say to me
I don't really care what you think of me
Cause either way you're gonna think what you believe
There's nothing you could say that would hurt me

I'm better off without you anyway
I thought it would be hard but I'm OK
I don't need you if you're gonna be that ( Read more... )

thats It..
I am officialy broken..
I cant stope crying..
Darren has fucked my life officaly and for good...
He went scyco tonight.... He has upset me soo much, I have spewd and i cant stop crying!!!! I dont know what to do...

All that started him of was, it was half an hour before elijahs bed time.. and I said I wanted him to let elijah settle down so ( Read more... )

What an eventfull afternoon...
We went to the plaza today to go to the bank and shops!
When we were in the warehouse it started to storm, really bad, there was hail all over the road and we waited in the warehouse for about 5 mins and decided to head back over to the plaza!
Anyways we were soaked and were walking acrross the road... (I didnt wanna ( Read more... )

Well nothing too important to update but I thought I would just come on here and say something,.
Xmas was good and Elijah enjoyed it. I got Desperate Housewifes season 2 Yay!!!!
Very exciting!

Boxing day I went with Dad Jess and Nicole to Lithgo for a family lunch, it was such a bloody long and tireing trip, something I dont wanna do again till bubs ( Read more... )

I have NO authoroity over elijah!
Darren wont let me!
He recons he is older and knows better...
so is that how it is going to be!
Im soo young and nieve!

He dont listen to how I feel.... I tell Darren constantly PANTS ON ELIJAH cause he pulls of his nappy..... telling him for weeks and weeks... He dont fucking listen!
so this morning I sit on the floor ( Read more... )

Ok so an update, as u all may know now I am having a girl! So that GREAT I am really happy... that I got a good "sperm donation"!!!!!!!

I have a few names picked out atm......
Arcadia - Jane
Matilda
Malika
Mercedes
Paige
Xylia

Recently I drove to Queensland with my friend Alisa and her two kids... Boy it was very very stressfull, Alisa's lil boy was a ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a long and tiring day ( Read more... )

Thanks girls ( Read more... )

Ok, So Here we go

I am preggers again, to a MAN I don't love and am in a relationship with another man whome is rather worthwhile is WONDERFULL.
I know he said that he will stick in there with me through it all, but once I get fat with baby love then is he gonna do?
I will be all alone again!!

My DAD HATES darren and well having another child will hurt ( Read more... )