I'm seriously slowly going crazy

[cunninlynguist]

and I don't even give enough of a shit to be sad while doing it. Normally when I go crazy, I'm really sad.. Like, I go crazy because I'm sad. Now I seriously have reached a sick point of apathy where I don't even give a shit that I'm going insane and don't even bother being sad in the midst. It's.. boring. I guess I'm just at a level of acceptance

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[fact_vsfiction]

HONESTLY I'M SURE YOU WILL LOVE GEORGIA AFTER YOU LIVE THEIR FOR A COUPLE MORE MONTHS AND DISCOVER THE GOOD HIDDEN PLACES AND PEOPLE. AND AS FAR AS THE HALLUCINATING WHEN YOU ARE STRESSED/DEPRESSED YOU REALLY DO HALLUCINATE I'VE HAD RANDOM HALLUCINATIONS THE LAST 6 MONTHS AND AT FIRST I THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY BUT THEN I REALIZED IT WAS NORMAL FOR HOW I FEEL, IF THAT MAKES SENSE.

[cunninlynguist]

Seriously, this place sucks. I haven't even SEEN anyone I'd like to talk to the entire time I've been here and out and about. I was hoping there were some trails, because there are tons of woods here, but I can't find any, and besides.. absolutely everywhere is spider infested here. It's crazy. I've never seen so many spiders in my whole life as I've seen in the month I've been up here. But anyway, it's nice to know my hallucinations aren't rare. I guess when you strain your brain way too hard it does weird things.

[jimmy_jamma]

You sound like me after I've had way too much time alone to think.

I don't think Georgia will get any better unless you have some sort of hobby that gets you around people that are somewhat similar to you. Even then, you might be screwed. It took me SIX months in Orlando, and that's a huge city. I met all of my friends through work. If you plan on staying, just wait it out until you start school. Don't put any hope in anyone, because that's just asking for disaster. Worry about yourself and enjoy your time alone. You may just miss this feeling of insanity one day. Embrace it!