I don't know what to do when you look at me....
I love how I manage to fuck up everything good that ever happens to me. I want to be able to fix this but it seems fucked beyond repair. And that scares me cause I don't want to lose you as a friend. You just have to understand that my heart is broken. I'm having to deal with the fact that the only thing I've ever been 100% sure about in my life was wrong. So, this may take some time, but I'm going to fix it. Just understand that I do still love you. I still want to be best friends. I still want all of it to stay the same. I'm just in a difficult situation right now. I'm not mad at you. I'm glad you are happy. I'm more or less mad at myself for getting so attatched to something that apparently wasn't there. I hope this is fixable.