Resolve

[cup_of_joe]

*whew* i ALMOST gave up on fasting... i had rationalized in my mind an excuse why I can't fast. Like it's preventing me from Job Hunting, I have to paint Maddy's room, sell the house, etc. I was feeling very stressed out last night and overwhelmed, I almost cried

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[blackrose_]

I totally understand you. I was in the same situation. It's my first ramadan alone... and it's really hard. Sometimes i just wonder what's the point? and then like you said my mind starts looking for excuses. but we have to be strong :) PLus, you know that if you don't fast you're going to feel bad and maybe regret it...We can do it ;)

[cup_of_joe]

yes, "what is the point" was my excuse last year (i broke it on the 27th day). what made me say "what is the point" was that by that time my family would have iftaar every day but it seemed nobody was fasting but me, they all had excuses (some of them not really ligit). and I got the impression that a couple of my brothers were just faking it. my Dad p*ssed me off by blowing cigarette smoke in my face, before iftaar time, and i told myself that I'm the only one, the whole world is faking it, "what is the point?" heheh. anyway it's tough for you to be alone, on the other hand, being with others can be frustrating if they are faking it or making excuses, that makes it easier for you to justify giving up... anyway good luck.

[chelone]

I know! I was sooooo close to giving up fasting when I came home yesterday. My parents' house is FULL OF FOOD. AND REALLY GOOD FOOD. And there was absolutely nothing to do there other than READ AND EAT!!! And it was very hard to not have a cup of tea with my father when I got back. Very hard. It's what we do together. And that strawberry tea was sooo tempting I almost didn't wait until 5.

Today my dad made this delicious breakfast, but long after sunrise. That was really tempting too.

I was originally afraid that it would make me really lethargic and tired, because I have a minor form of Mediterranean anemia, and not eating could be not good... but I must be on an upswing because I haven't been anymore tired than I usually am. Woo.

It does make me appreciate food a lot more, and thus sympathize with those who can't eat, which is a vital theme behind the whole month of fasting. So... I guess it's working.

We're almost there! Just about week and a half and we're set! We can do it!

[cup_of_joe]

you just made me hungry :)
to be honest i didn't think you'd last this long
because you are not Muslim and have little support.
so I'm surprised but I'm impressed with you. Keep it
up!

[cup_of_joe]

hey by the way, Tori comes out with a new CD in
a few dayz... mostly remastered songs i think.

Precious Things
Angels
Silent All These Years
Cornflake Girl
Mary
God
Winter
Spark
Way Down
Professional Widow
Mr. Zebra
Crucify
Me and A Gun
Bliss
Playboy Mommy
Baker Baker
Tear in Your Hand
Sweet Dreams
Jackie's Strength
Snow Cherries From France

[chelone]

Sah-weeeet.

Yeah, I heard of it, and most likely I will at some point purchase it