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[cupcake_cyanide]

My boyfriend and I got into a fight last night, and it turned violent. I woke up with bruises all over my body and head.

I thought about crashing my car into a tree.

I don't know why I didn't.

I always figured that i'd die by one of three things:

1. Murder.

2. Suicide.

3. An overdose.

I don't expect to make it passed my mid-20's.

Goodnight moon.

Comments

[rileytides]

i've been thinking and have thought i'd die by...
(1) suicide
(3) drug od
(2) suicide by drug od
(4) ed complications

murder is an interesting one..
i love your journal. skimmed through a few entries but i'm off to class. oh shit, i mean i'm late to class. ha/sighh. thanks for the add.

[cupcake_cyanide]

Maybe the murder one is just me being paranoid, but you never know.

haha.

[cynicwithasmile]

damn, don't you pull a rihanna and let this go

i always thought i'd be murdered. i'm convinced there are a bunch of people who hate me and want me dead.

the irony is i have two reoccuring dreams:
1. I'm in a parkinglot, leaving my studio with either a fabric bolster of sketch book and when i close the trunk to my car someone is standing there staring at me. but i can never see their face. they always say something like "this is for everything you've ever done to me, all the pain you've caused. fuck you" and shoots me

2. i'm in the parking lot again but this time my dad is there and he shoots me

but i never see the bullet or me getting shot, i only here the sound of the trigger

[southbr]

hey girl... move on from the jerk

be beautiful - in and out... you don't need bruises or that kind of love

xx
SFBAy