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in a lot of ways, i am really, really lucky. i know a lot of really good, lovely, fun, amazing, fun people. and i'm pretty good too.
it sucks that when something goes sour people always feel the need to desecrate the memory of it. since she said we never really knew each other that well, i've been thinking about last year a lot.
remember how we used to always say that going to have a cigarette was like an activity? remember how we would always be like, let's go have a cigarette, and then forget, and then keep saying it and it would be like two hours later by the time we did? remember when we went to see sin city with e, sk, and jj? and we smoked bowl after bowl in the car on lake shore while e stuttered and we were sure we'd get into an accident? and then we went back to their place and made pot brownies and got so high. remember when you took me and sk to the homeless shelter? do you remember the first time we went to unique, or the time on the 171 i told you my big secret? or the time last quarter you told me you thought i was so brave and so strong? for some reason i don't remember a lot of specific stuff but i remember going to a lot of parties and i remember smoking a lot of pot and mostly i remember having a lot of fun. i remember you writing me a lot of emails this summer and sending me a lot of letters and calling me whenever you were having problems with b. i remember you saying i was your best girl friend. remember last quarter when i planned a surprise party for you? two, actually. you didn't really seem to care.things were really good once. i hope you remember that, at least. just some of it.
love,
danielle
it sucks that when something goes sour people always feel the need to desecrate the memory of it. since she said we never really knew each other that well, i've been thinking about last year a lot.
remember how we used to always say that going to have a cigarette was like an activity? remember how we would always be like, let's go have a cigarette, and then forget, and then keep saying it and it would be like two hours later by the time we did? remember when we went to see sin city with e, sk, and jj? and we smoked bowl after bowl in the car on lake shore while e stuttered and we were sure we'd get into an accident? and then we went back to their place and made pot brownies and got so high. remember when you took me and sk to the homeless shelter? do you remember the first time we went to unique, or the time on the 171 i told you my big secret? or the time last quarter you told me you thought i was so brave and so strong? for some reason i don't remember a lot of specific stuff but i remember going to a lot of parties and i remember smoking a lot of pot and mostly i remember having a lot of fun. i remember you writing me a lot of emails this summer and sending me a lot of letters and calling me whenever you were having problems with b. i remember you saying i was your best girl friend. remember last quarter when i planned a surprise party for you? two, actually. you didn't really seem to care.things were really good once. i hope you remember that, at least. just some of it.
love,
danielle