My Soul is Crushed ....

[curegrrlie]

I was going to make a happy update about the general goings on in my life but it all kind of came crashing down on me this week

Comments

[morgana_lefaye]

Good lord...
I don't even know what to say. I am shocked.
I am also extremely worried about you right now, and I would give anything to be in NH. You need time to mourn and time to yourself, but I offer all my love to you would hug you close if I could.

You're so strong Danielle, and the things that befall you, you do not deserve. May Adam rest in peace and may his soul finally find comfort and rest. I can't type my condolences on a livejournal comment, but always know you are loved and cherished. I am incredibly sorry for your loss and the stress you have endured. I pray that you get through these hard times and to continue pursuing your dreams. I'll be back in 1 month and I want to see you if you will be around..especially for Halloween. Take time off and take care of yourself to ease the burden. If I could do anything to help you, please let me know and I will be there.

[kambriel]

Danielle ~ I'm so sorry for your tragic loss. I do think Adam has finally found his peace, and just wish it didn't take the ending of his life to do so. I truly hope it was an accidental o.d., so at least he might not have felt it coming and would have just drifted off, numbed...

I know it must feel so nightmarish/surreal now, but just do as you are, do what you need and you will get through this and into the positive future he'd have wished you to have.

I wish I could be *there* for you now.

much love,
~ Kambriel

[curegrrlie]

Thank you for the kind words....I haven't been responding to individual messages very much...it's very very overwhelming. I can't wait until we can get together again, hopefully it will be sooner than later.

[kambriel]

I'm hoping to possibly be up there for a few days come November if I can...

[pat_man_ta]

i'm so sorry hon.
i don't know what else to say about the shock of such a loss.

i just hope that last week isn't going to be the last time i see you smile.
i'm pretty sure it won't be. this pain you are feeling won't be sitting on your chest forever.

[madamekat]

My god, Sweetie, I am sooo sorry! Sending strength and love.

[curegrrlie]

Thank you. I'm trying to decide what to wear to is services....A part of me wants to go into full mourning attire, and another part of me just wants to be practical and wear whatever I normally wear on any given day....both work lol. His services are supposed to be a "celebration" of his life.....but we were goth and well...yeah lol.

what to do what to do...

[curegrrlie]

I require a veil no matter what

[kambriel]

Isn't it surreal how much of a challenge it can be dressing for a funeral as a goth? I've (sadly) had to notice that myself in the past year. Other (non-goth) people would think it was total second nature and "obvious", but it's really quite strange.

[winters_chill]

I'm very sorry to hear of your loss. You're a strong woman, so try to hang in there.