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[curemywellness]

Height?: 5'4.75

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[pigenergy]

i think you need to reconsider your ideal weight. guys like to have something to grap on, say a nice ass, think J-LO at an extreme, but there is always something in the middle. you have to stop being someone else and let your other self rule your life while you watch patiently. Yes, for fucks sake, we are all not perfect, in fact we all have 'the other side of the moon', invisible, but dont let it lead to you to a wrong conclusion. you will succeed in becoming better, by being yourself and yourself only....dont run away, dont project it all on your weight, how silly is that? i know you have emotional issues, i should call you silly, but you know you should develop a sense of self-worth, sooner or later. It hurts to me to write this, because I know for sure, certain things about yourself you dont want to face and admit, but rather scrape on the surface with a silver spoon. Jee, you admit yourself that you dont want to get better, but seriously, how can that be true. we only venture on an adventure to become stronger and more

[curemywellness]

I know guys don't like what I want to be. But this isn't for them. This weight loss is for me, and me only. I don't care if other people think I look disgusting, great or fat. I just want to be what I want, not what any one else wants.

And I do want to get better, I want to. But then again I don't. This is bad for me, I know that. And I know there are better things out there, too, and that I can get them, if I want to. But this is what is comfortable for me, this is what gives me control (or at least makes me feel like I have control), this is who I am. It would take so much effort to let go of this, and I'm not willing to do that. Maybe someday-- but not now.

Thanks for everything. Your words are really kind. =]