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Mar 08, 2004 14:27

I have had somewhat intense writer's block for quite a while now ( Read more... )

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curiouselliot March 9 2004, 09:06:51 UTC
Thanks for the comment, bud. I'd rather be myself too.

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toast3r March 8 2004, 11:42:13 UTC
First of all, it doesn't sound good where you are. Diminished sensations as the price for diminished pain is very rarely worth it. It makes me feel kind of sad to hear that you are willing to settle or a light cling, but given you current state, I can understand why a light cling is preferable to say, nothing to cling to ( ... )

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curiouselliot March 8 2004, 12:31:13 UTC
Well, when I was referring to lightly holding things, I didn't mean to make myself emotionally distant from something or not being as close as it could/should be. By "clinging" I meant holding something so close it's unhealthy. So close that you worry about losing it all the time, being jealous, etc. I feel someone can hold something lightly and care very deeply about it and be completely emotionally invested.

I just mean being at peace with the relationship...enjoying what it is...and accepting that whatever will be will be. In the past entering into a relationship would make me anxious because it was something that I could lose and someone with whom I felt I had to meet certain expectations, to perform. Now, I am just myself, and I don't worry about those things, I don't feel jealous, and most of the time I feel at peace with it.

But, yes, thanks for the input, they are somethings to consider.

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toast3r March 8 2004, 13:13:43 UTC
(whew!)

Inner peace = good thing.

If you ever want to try the tag team writing thing, I'm certainly willing to help. But it depends on what you like to write. My own creative writing is a little stale, I think.

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curiouselliot March 9 2004, 09:45:17 UTC
I might take you up on that.

I find that I am much more productive/creative/happy in the morning than at nighttime....I figured it is related to my cortisol levels. Does that mean anything to you, in terms of what you know about energy and psychology?

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tres_faux March 8 2004, 12:05:28 UTC

If you're on a combination of both SSRIs and anti-anxiety medication (which you are?), it's likely more the anti-anxiety meds cause this deadening of alacrity. However, the SSRIs are probably responsible for the lessened sex drive. You might ask your doctor about those, they can be alleviated in some cases with Wellbutrin XL or CR.

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curiouselliot March 8 2004, 12:35:16 UTC
ANdrew,

I am on Buprenorphine, an opiate (I made an edit above to show that) and trazodone. It's a med which made me functional again (about a year ago), and it's now a matter of tapering off of it, i guess. I have started to do it recently, so I guess I'll find out if it helps.

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tres_faux March 8 2004, 13:11:42 UTC
Interesting. Trazodone is one of the uncategorized anti-depressants, right? (As in not quite SSRI, but similar...) And buprenorphine, well, that's generally used in the treatment of addiction and so tapering off it might well take awhile. How long have you been on the trazodone?

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curiouselliot March 8 2004, 16:07:05 UTC
Yea, trazodone is an atypical antidepressant....I was originally went on it for sleep. I've been on the trazodone for a year or so....I went off it twice but decided to go back on it each time. I thought I felt worse going off it, but it may very well have been placebo. I wanted to get back on it if I was gonna taper off the Suboxone (buprenorphine), just so I have that extra cushion if needed.

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scipio505 March 8 2004, 12:15:11 UTC
Damn. How long are you gonna have to take these meds?

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curiouselliot March 8 2004, 12:39:33 UTC
There is no definite time period, being that it is a maintenance drug. I'd like to be off it within a year or two.

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scipio505 March 12 2004, 09:47:46 UTC
Kewl. Good luck, Jared.

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polymorphous March 8 2004, 12:26:01 UTC
Hiya. I wondered where you had got to.
Which med/s are you on? What dosage? For depression/bipolar II, anxiety, OCD or a combination And when did you start?
I've been on Zoloft for quite a while (depression and OCD), and several of the teens I work with are taking meds, mostly Venlafaxine (Efexor) and Paroxetine (Paxil) which are the usual choices for that age group.
Creativity is not always affected, but it does happen, and in many cases that improves after a month or so. Diminished libido is common, but that passes too, especially if you practise getting off as fast as you can - which is the reverse of what almost everyone except 15-year-olds do. Mostly it only affects response time, rather than causing erection problems. I don't personally know of anyone who hasn't got back to normal ejaculation within three months of starting the meds.
If you want to answer the questions I put, I'll be better able to offer advice.
email me direct if you prefer.
peace :)
Tony

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