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curlgirl510

On how Grad School Applications are like Unrequited love

Mar 10, 2009 20:56

The strong verb for requite in Old English is "agieldan". It means to repay, recompensate, or offer oneself up as a sacrifice.

So, graduate programs, you didn't repay me for all of the hard work I put into you. You didn't give me anything back.

I am still waiting on words of requitement from Iowa, Indiana, and Western Michigan but I feel fairly ( Read more... )

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acommonreader March 11 2009, 03:35:02 UTC

I would LOVE for you to join my program. Goodness. You are not alone in being nervous. My boyfriend is waiting back to hear from Iowa as well, and has been stalking the Gradcafe, and is feeling a little like, "Ummmmm...What the hell? I was in your Workshop? And then ran away to Harvard? WHAT DO YOU WANT?" Anx.iety.

Who knows what things factor in for any of these programs right now. We sat at dinner and talked about the "what if" of him not getting in, about alternatives.

And in truth, when we talk in these ways, I feel a bit like I should offer up my spot to him, since God knows I am not getting all of my work done these days, am a touch distractable and focus-less.

See?! Come here! All fun, all the time!
I am going to fail my midterm. Ye gods.

acommonreader March 11 2009, 03:39:25 UTC

And, WOW: "Also, my doctor was asking me about school and she told me how she loved to read Czech poetry when she was in med school. She said that the students would read to stay awake on their night shifts at the hospital. It feed into my highly romanticized view of literature. Reading poetry while completely exhausted, surrounded by possible death seems so pure."

And: My comment was likely a dumb one to leave. So sorry. Just meant to say: all are a bit worried right now, but there are others who also do not know, so take comfort. In addition, you are good to plan no matter the hypothetical context with which you work: pleasant, or no. This is just a wise, wise, good-to-and-love-yourself thing to do.

Chin up, baby.

curlgirl510 March 13 2009, 17:42:14 UTC

Your words always offer a bit of hope. I hope your boyfriend gets in to Iowa.

I just found out today that I was rejected from Indiana and Iowa. So I only have one more school left. I'm excited to have another chance to improve though. I bet I can get my GRE score up and maybe rethink my writing sample.

It's just a little bit soul crushing but, you are right, back-up plans make me feel better.

hunterxtc March 11 2009, 08:44:42 UTC

Stay strong! Although we all take different paths to get to the place we are destined to be, I know that the doctorate is in your future. And I would definately take one of the bachelors before moving back home... your independence seems to be something that defines you, and to have that taken away would be very problematic.

I love thje fact that you won't put out for anyone but grad school :-)

curlgirl510 March 13 2009, 17:43:49 UTC

I know, I feel that way too; I need to keep pursuing Literature. Of course, this feeling is confounded by rejection letters. Nothing stings as much as people telling you that you can't do what you most want.

And, it's true....grad school is my only significant other right now. That's really all I have time for.

curlgirl510 March 13 2009, 17:44:47 UTC

I felt pretty down today but it's amazing how a few words supporting words from others can make me feel better.

Some times those little little good things can trump the big bad things.

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Re: Found you through gradlitgeeks curlgirl510 May 2 2009, 04:08:40 UTC

I know! Grad school basically becomes your significant other; I don't think I've even put this much time into another person.

I hope next year goes well for you (and remember: it's okay if things don't work out the first time. I've seen a lot of people on here go through multiple trys). I'm crossing my fingers for some luck with Ph.D. apps next year.