The reason you see smiles and lack of crying is because I don't want you to worry about me. "I am fine" is what I say. I'm not going to be anybody's burden, people have their own shit to deal with, why would they want to help me with mine?

I wonder about myself a lot. I really am confused as to what decisions I should be making in my life. I feel like I should be old enough to know since I am roughly 17 hours away from home, yet I'm 18...I just graduated 3 months ago...I was just under my parents control not too long ago. It sucks that I gave up so much time to be able to play ( Read more... )

Lonely and lost...I don't know what to do with myself anymore.

So, you hear of career ending injuries...mine took 4 1/2 years to develop. Maybe it wasn't a CAREER persay, but it is all I've known for 10 years...for over half of my life so far. I've been playing sports since I was 6...I've been a gym rat...what do I do now? I always knew that I'd stop playing at some point, but certainly not this soon. This ( Read more... )

It's amazing how many people you have in your life, yet you're completely lonely...

"Your schedule is going to start picking up pretty quickly and you'll have to start using more of your time management skills" AKA...YOU WON'T HAVE A LIFE!

PS. We're having a dry season this year...

definitely start in 8 days...ugh.

-Lesley
PS. Where o' where is my lil' adria?? Hopefully enjoying herself! :)

I'm loving every minute of my two days here in Charleston, South Carolina. Actually, I've only been here for roughly 26 hours...beautiful town & campus, lovely friends, cute boys, wonderful coach, and awesome team! Someone wake me...I must've fallen asleep! :)

9 days...

so, tonite was my first real bar nite...very interesting! I just got home...yeah...I saw Rich Hardesty there...he played several times throughout the nite. An awesome awesome guy...good looking also! There's nothing like singing "I never wanna fucking see you again" front row with a beer in hang dancing...ahhh, the life.
GoodNight