So, I am finally home after what seems like the longest, most stressful year of my life. Had to stay to close up the dorms, was so tired that I slept in and didn't go to graduation, but saw Nate wander by as I was packing, looking for his girlfriend. My mom got all my things from my room last Saturday, minus my backpack and a small daypack. It's ( Read more... )

Well, the year is finally winding down and summer approaches yet again. I wonder what will happen, who will I meet and if I will be happy. I guess you could say it's been productive: I've survived the RA job, got certified to become a personal fitness trainer (not sure if I have a job with that yet), changed my major, contemplated changing again ( Read more... )

So, I couldn't be happier the year is coming to an end. Anyway, RA job is still pretty shitty- it's so fun when u have to put on a fucking social and no one ever comes- even when they promise they will or they ask for something specific. Eh, I guess I'm used to it by now. It's fun when u can't have a social life, and even when u do, u still feel ( Read more... )

A few weeks ago my hall director had us all answer the question, "what is the meaning of life?" Been thinking about that alot and wondering what my purpose is. Maybe it's just to be exposed to as many shitty experiences as possible and get over them all. Hell, that's what humans are programmed to do. What a shitty meaning that is. Well, the ( Read more... )

As usual, I should be sleeping since I know I will be falling asleep in chem class tomorrow. But, my body tells me otherwise and it's always good to listen ( Read more... )

So tonight I watched the movie "Rent", which was amazing. It had me lauging and crying intermittently. The acting was downright awesome and the songs made me shiver. It's really weird, but Roger looked quite similar to Zach, just an interesting thing I noticed ( Read more... )

I wonder why the human race is so complicated in that trying to find someone who actually cares is so hard. Look at the rest of the animal kingdom- they pick mates based on pedigree and health for the sole sake of procreation. Why can't we be like that? Fuck love and all that crap, i don't see why we need it. We're supposed to be the superior ( Read more... )

It is truly amazing when you find great friends. While in their presence it is ok to be yourself and there is a sense of safety. No matter the location, if friends are near, it can be transformed into the best possible place. While among friends you are encouraged to have fun and make a fool of yourself,t o relax and let the roots emerge ( Read more... )

So, here I am, back in Hetzel, and I couldn't be happier. I've really come to love this dorm and the people living in it. I've got some great people on my floor, and the new residents are pretty cool. There seems to be interest in interaction on the floor, which makes me very happy. I feel as if they are more comfortable and willing to come to ( Read more... )

I sometimes find myself not wanting to think; all I want to do is to work; to obey orders. It's the mindless tasks that offer reprieve at times when thought seems like torture.But is this my nature or the conditioning of society? I never really grew up with a television- my parents didn't allow it. Spending almost a week in front of it, it's ( Read more... )