This wasted year, these wasted years

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10 minutes until this year ends. I'm still ever so confused. It seems I have difficulty with these simple things. I don't know what to do anymore. I carry a smile all year long, I put extra effort to pleasing everybody, especially those I love, but as the year comes to an end, I'm alone, my nose runs, and my eyes red. It's so pathetic. It

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[jessabell91]

You're not alone, even if it feels that way. I'm sure more people thank you realize carry you in their thoughts and hearts. Sometimes we do chose to be upset, and other times we talk ourselves down from our own valid emotions. I know I've been guilty of both, but it seems to get better with age. What would you like to change this year?

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Myself perception. I'd like to be able to value myself worth, especially when I'm feeling very emotional. To accept myself, the change, to be content in what/who I have/am I suppose.

More than anything, I want to keep us. I don't want to lose her.

[jessabell91]

Those sound like good goals. We all have moments of emotional insecurity, some more than others. As strange as it sounds, I was really surprised to find out that even the people I knew who seemed the most "together," still had moments of self doubt and depreciation. Knowing that everyone feels that way from time to time helps me judge myself less harshly when I'm emotionally vulnerable.

On the topic of your relationship, that's really sweet. As long as you've been together, I don't see why you guys can't work it out if both want it badly enough to put in the effort :)

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Thought I'd share. Things are going swell these days. Lots of changes, but things have fallen back to the way they were--in a positive note.

6 years and counting.

I appreciate every word you shared. Thank you.