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like night and day.
dad is awake and coherent and going to continue the medical route for the forseeable future.
i'm more conflicted about this than anyone else in my family.
he's resigning from association, he's feeling like his whole system failed him, and although it's one i've rejected, i don't want that for him.
yesterday, when he was more loopy, i said i'd be praying on him getting out of the hospital, and he was happy i'd read the lesson and said i "pray so well".
i think he thought i was still a Scientist.
if he's a diabetic, i want him to be using medicine, but i wish he didn't have to give up on Science.
it doesn't help that i want to be praying but, as usual, i can't around my family.
i recited tehillim when my siblings left for errands, lunch, and cigarettes, but i can't when they're around.
with dad feeling apostate, now i'm the only religious one.
that wasn't hugely coherent.
the real status update:
dad is awake, alert, talking and joking and only sometimes mixing up words.
he's not in huge pain, and keeps showing off my moving his stump around.
the doctors are astounded with his progress.
he's got a ticket out of the icu, but there aren't any beds available elsewhere.
he's having surgery to create the skin cap on wednesday.
i snapped at my mother a little when i was startled.
i've already asked some of you, but:
those who live in dc:
i'm going to need to not be staying with my parents/siblings the whole time i'm home.
if you can let me sleep over one night between now and the new year, please email me nights that might work and your address.