About my place in life, I'm not sure anymore... plus these dreams and nightmares I'm having are confusing me more and more...
Holy Dream
Just yesterday... I dreamt of something that was related to religion...
and that was very unusual since it's not that often that I dream about
those things...
In my dream, I was in school, simply playing around with my classmates,
then I noticed a hole in the ground, I jumped in it, and found it to be
filled with water, so I swam to the deepest part of it. There, I found
an image of the Virgin Mary, and in her arms, was the Baby Jesus. When
I saw them, the water drained away, and they became alive, Mary spoke
to me, telling me that she wants to see the world as it is now, I
couldn't help but agree, so I brought them out of the hole. As Mary was
astonished by everything, she told me to take hold of Baby Jesus, to
carry him and take care of him while she would go around the place and
see how Earth has changed. After she left, I took Baby Jesus around to
see stuff, like some gardens, my classroom, etc. Then I gave him some
Ice Cream. Soon, Mary came back and told me that she had seen enough,
and that she wishes the world will change for the better. After that I
leaded them back into the hole, which when they were back where I found
them, they turned to statues and I was out of the hole and the hole was
gone, after that, I woke up.
Evil Nightmare
A long time ago, I had this nightmare... which seems to remain in my head, scaring me always. Making me fear myself.
In this nightmare, I could see from outside the gate, my house, burning
to ashes... and on the ground near the gate... My parents... my
sister... my house helpers... everyone... even my pets... were
killed... I spotted a calendar near my sister... an X marking January
21 of 2007... when I rose my head from the sight of my sister... I saw
someone... holding a knife in his bloody hands... and I was so
shocked... to only see... that that person... was Me...
This nightmare scared me so much... that I didn't eat and locked myself
in my room for 3 days... I wish this will never happen...
The Mysterious and Ever-Returning Dream
This dream... which has started since the time I bought my sister a pendant... never stopped coming back to me...
In the dream, I was running, leading a man and a woman... I don't know
from where or to where... but we were running from something...
Soon, when we were deep in the forest, I was met by my a young lady who
I knew was my sister, because of the pendant she wore, was holding a
gun and pointing it at me... and this dialouge began:
Esa (My sister): "Why kuya! Why did you betray us... WHY DO YOU PROTECT
THESE MONSTERS!?" (she says as she points at the man and woman"
Me: "Because it's my obligation to do so!!! And I know it's right!!!...
Esa! Can't you see!? You're blinded by them! They're lying! They don't
want peace! They want war! They want to rule over everything!"
Esa: "LIAR!"
(the sound of gunshot fills the air)
And after that... I awakened, Esa was there, watching me, telling me why I screamed and looked in agony while I was asleep.
True Dreams?
Some of the dreams I had... kinda had an "aftershock" like these:
I dreamt I was shot in the hand, when I woke up, my hand was bleeding heavily.
I dreamt that I was being chased by some gangsters and jumped of a
cliff, survived, though my glasses were broken and I was bleeding a
lot, went home and slept, when I woke up, I didn't have injuries, yet
oddly, my clothes were stained with blood, and my glasses were broken.
I dreamt that my dog bit me on the arm, when I woke up, I saw a bite mark on my arm, yet my dog outside was still in his cage.
Some dreams, did come true:
I dreamt one of my dogs would die because it'd get hit by a car... the following day it did.
I dreamt I'd get 1/40 score in one of my quizzes... it happened.
I dreamt that one of the most important places I ever visited would be
destroyed, the following day, I heard from my mom that the ME
(mechanical engineering) building was burnt to the ground... The ME
building is where Me and two of my bestfriends in elementary first met.
Well... for now, that's most of it... Even though I have these dreams,
and most of my neighbors say I have a Third Eye, or I'm a descendant of
an apostle, or a born killer or etc etc... I still don't believe
them... I can only believe in myself...