A series of you and me [CHAPTER 15]
Title: A series of you and me
Chapters: 15/?
Genre: Angst. Romance. Smut.
Warnings: Angst. Sadism/Masochism.
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings: AoixUruha (others?) - ReitaxRuki (?)
Disclaimer: I only own my imagination ♪
Synopsis: Kouyou finds his life ruled by the glimpses of him he can see.
Kouyou raised his head up to the sky and admired the tiny golden glitters scattered everywhere.
He couldn't remember when he had heard him open the door but, suddenly, a pair of warm palms were against his cheeks and he was kissed smoothly, his eyes closing, showing a black hole and his heart exploding like a supernova.
- Here you are...
Kouyou didn't smile. He just stared at him.
This time, none of them were displaying any mask, any mean to hide away their true identity.
Yuu knew who was this stranger from the Black Moral. This one he had sex with in the Heresy room, this one he had saved from some psycho's hands another night.
And he was finding him back here, where they made love all night long the last time they had seen each other.
Almost a month ago.
Kouyou was brought out from his thoughts by Yuu's laughs. The dark haired was holding the thin red silk sheet in his hand and was tilting his head to glance at the bottle of wine and glasses besides the mattress.
- I see...You were serious about it.
- I always am.
Yuu's smile faded away. He reached out shyly for Kouyou's chin, his thumb stroking his lower lip lovingly.
He didn't know what to say. How to begin. He didn't know what he represented for Kouyou. Just a fuck. Or more. And suddenly it was hitting him like a wave, what if he couldn't ask for things Kouyou never wanted to give?
- Why did you come back?
Kouyou tore his gaze away from him, voluntarily ignoring his demand and poured himself a glass of wine. He drank a little and handed Yuu the glass, observing his adam's apple going up and down, his tongue dancing on his lips and the way his black orbs were scrutinizing him.
- You felt lonely.
Yuu faked a laugh.
- How kind from you.
- Are they singing now? The stars?
There was a hint of anger in Yuu's reply:
- I can't hear them anymore.
Kouyou came closer, tugging on his grey shirt, his warm breath blowing against his lips:
- I can hear them.
- Liar.
He was mad. Kouyou didn't let any emotion take over him.
He kissed Yuu and yelped in pain when this one bit his lip. He was then pushed against the mattress, Yuu's senses completely awaken, looking at him like a beast over its prey. Teeth sank in his neck, nails scratching his naked chest...All he moaned was his pain for few seconds until Yuu stopped.
He just did, sitting up, feeling Kouyou's erection pressing against his crotch.
- Why are you so turned on?
Shame. Kouyou looked back at him with shame.
- What is so appealing with people taking you for trash and throwing you away later?
Kouyou tried to sit up but Yuu's strong arms kept him down the bed.
- Now don't try to run away. Just face things.
- Leave me the fuck alone!
Yuu smiled.
- You don't really want that.
Kouyou tried to get away from his grip but the struggle seemed useless.
- I want you to hurt me!
Yuu's soft lips quieted him and he couldn't hold them back anymore. He cried. Yuu held him tight against himself and whispered gently in his ear:
- I don't want to hurt you.
The sound of his sobs broke his heart.
- I don't want to hurt you. This isn't going to solve anything...It made me sad that you didn't come back but, I won't hurt you for that.
Kouyou closed his eyes, calmed by Yuu's sweet whispers.
When he opened his eyes, it was still dark, the stars were still shining through the ceiling made of glass and Yuu was now next to him, looking at him.
Kouyou didn't want to talk. He thought he needn't to because it was obvious. Yuu would understand, will read in his eyes what he didn't want to be remembered.
That I'm such a weak person...
His hand trailed on his hip and Kouyou closed his eyes.
- You look so different with your glasses on.
The younger sighed, uneasy with his faults displayed again. The guilt was making his stomach twitch.
- You look sadder. Like you're blocking all attempt of yourself to show how bright you really are. It's such a waste...
- It's only what I deserve.
A finger pressing against his full lips.
- Don't...Don't say such unfair things.
A short time filled with stares and strokes.
- How did you recognize me?
Yuu grinned in the dark, caressing Kouyou's dark hair.
- No glasses can hide those lips, this voice, this height, those eyes...
- Just...How?
Yuu shrugged his shoulders.
- I saw you many times after our encounter here. Always evasive, I could never properly see you. Takanori was always talking about you and the few traits of you he could show me, I would always think "he looks like that stranger from the Black Moral". Then I found physical similarities between them and it just struck me: it was you.
Kouyou shivered. What if Yuu could notice...? He can't. He's too blinded by this discovery.
- Since when now?
Yuu looked up at the dark sky:
- Few days. But I hesitated a lot before coming to you...Today at Le Petit Crème, when I saw you, heard you, I knew I was right.
Yuu looked back at him:
- Why did you stay away from our shelter?
Kouyou's lips were trembling.
- It wasn't a shelter anymore.
He shut his eyes tight.
- God...You're driving me crazy.
- I'll drive you mad.
- Kouyou it's...
Yuu sighed. Kouyou smiled.
- Already calling me so familiarly?
- We had sex with each other I think it's gone far enough for me to call you by your first name.
Kouyou smirked, fingertips ghosting on Yuu's clothed chest. The dark haired's voice resonated firmly around them:
- Why do you keep your true self away from me?
- Why do you act like you mean something to me?
Yuu shot him an angry look.
- Why are you here then?
- Sex.
He felt the urge to stand up and leave. But he stayed.
- There are whores for that.
- But you give me free services.
- I'll make you pay.
Kouyou moved languidly beside him, turned on by their little talk.
- How much?
- I'm afraid you can't afford my services by baking cakes and serving coffee all day long.
Kouyou laughed:
- I'll ruin myself then...
Yuu grabbed his hair and kissed him with passion. Kouyou felt the pain, his eyes glistened and he tried to stay focused on Yuu's tongue playing with his, with teasing touches.
- You've ruined yourself for so long...Won't you stop one day?
Kouyou looked defiantly into his dark eyes:
- You don't know me.
Yuu laughed, then held Kouyou's lower lip between his teeth, harder and harder until the other hissed and pushed him away:
- So why can I read you so easily...Hm? Tell me Takashima, bloody why? Why can I see sorrow behind every fake persona you're showing?
Kouyou didn't want him anymore.
No, he hated him. Yes, he hated him. I hate you.
- Back in the Heresy Room, at the coffee shop, you always act like you're ok but you're not. It's emanating from all the artificial happiness you're displaying. Why can I see that then? I don't know you that's true, but I've figured out enough.
Kouyou was now the one overwhelmed with anger.
- Let me fucking go now!
Yuu didn't want to obey so he held his arms tighter.
- I won't. You don't know the kind of thing you did to me! You fucked me up!
Kouyou frowned, calming down a little.
- Why were you in this damn room of Hell in the first place! Why did I have to find you there again! And why did you say beautiful words under this fucking night sky?!
Kouyou could only stare incredulously at his pained face. His heart tightened when Yuu's voice had that soft and weak tone...
- I can't get you out of my mind.
He sat up, his gaze wandering on the wall or somewhere else, Kouyou couldn't tell.
- I don't want to hold onto you to be left alone like I don't mean anything. Even if I know that I don't mean anything to you. I'm the one who can't get over you. I...
He looked around himself, lost. He knew that he was just a stranger to Kouyou, another stranger, a hook up, a toy, a consolation.
He got onto his feet, didn't bother to look back at him and simply left the room, quietly. Kouyou felt then an immense sadness envelopping his entire self, consumed by Yuu's words and pain.
He didn't know what was the most painful, Yuu's state or the things he said.
Takanori drummed nervously with his fingertips on the leather of the bar counter.
He couldn't deal with all the warm stares Akira was getting from that pink haired waitress, nor Akira's shy smiles to her when she was around.
This and the fact he had never been defeated by a woman. No he couldn't be defeated by a woman, he would fight and...He shook his head, exasperated. She wasn't even subtle in her seduction game. All she could do was to bend over the counter to grab the cocktails, almost kicking out a breast out of her outrageous laced bra, playing with her pink ponytail and letting her tongue slide on her juicy lips.
- You're so cliché baby it hurts.
Akira turned around, brought back to earth by Takanori's deep voice.
- What? I didn't hear you.
- Distracted much tonight?
Akira blushed.
- Oh a bit, sorry.
- What's in your mind, tell me?
Akira looked at the few rings decorating Takanori's fingers, absent-mindly.
- I don't know...Few things.
- That is to say...
Akira's head snapped up and he focused on his friend's gaze:
- I just wonder what kind of life I should live from now. What kind of path I should follow.
I get it, said Takanori's mind loudly.
- Whether you should fuck her or not?
Akira nearly drop the glass in his hand, stunned by Takanori's direct comment.
- Wait what?
The hairdresser rolled his eyes, annoyed:
- Oh you heard me well, no need to act like a saint Suzuki.
- I...It's just that...
Akira kept his mouth shut, at a loss for words. His mind had gone entirely blank. He couldn't tell if it was the statement or the fact Takanori seemed upset. Or both mixed.
- Well I'm going to head back home, I'm working tomorrow.
Akira finally reacted:
- You haven't finished your sex on the beach!
- Well we're not at the beach so I'd rather keep the sex for when this occasion comes! Good night!
He turned around and left the Toxic, a bitter taste in mouth.
That night, four men spent a sleepless night.
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Woop woop sorry for the late update! I hope both Aoiha & Reituki fans are quite happy I provided them their pairing lol. Hm it's getting kinda complicated with a tad bit of drama...Hm let's see how they sort things out if they manage to!
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