Break the rules [Chapter 19]
Title: Break the rules
Chapter: 19/20
Genre: Ship/Romance, angst, fluff, smut.
Warnings: Angst. Smut.
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings: AoixUruha (ReitaxRuki)
Disclaimer: I only own my imagination ♪
Synopsis: Long lasting sex games are addicting. Follow the rules and be safe. Break them and see the consequences.
Comments: Took me forever. Soon coming to an end ;__;
Uruha's stare was drowning in his beer.
- It's still the same?
He raised his head.
- Still the same.
The same old shit I find myself in.
Reita let out a small sigh and squeezed his best friend's hand fleetingly.
- You really bother me these days. I'm not your fucking baby sitter.
Uruha pouted, looking at his reflection in the mirror of the elevator.
- Why are you so mean to me?
Reita crossed his arms, pinching his nose because it was stitching.
- Because you're so clingy, I had plans for today too and you come and decide that I should cancel everything for the whining queen you are.
The blond guitarist punched Reita's arm immediately and the other backed up, frowning:
- It hurt!
- Yeah I hope it did asshole!
The bassist rolled his eyes, wondering why his friend had been so moody lately but surely, Uruha needed his presence today again so he would forget his worries. Reita was almost sure it had something to do with Aoi but, the other wouldn't reply to his questions, forever changing the subject.
The elevator stopped and he followed Uruha who found his keys in the pocket of his jeans, quietly. Reita was afraid the blond was mad at him for the way he had talked to him but...He had planned so many things for today and everything had crashed down the second he saw Uruha's face at his door, and now he was sure Ruki was mad at him for that. He was so torn...
- What are you waiting for here? Should I carry you in bride style?
Reita stammered and looked at his friend before frowning.
- What the hell? Carry me? Touch me and your ass will meet the ground!
Uruha laughed, still holding the handle of the door with a grin:
- Oh, is that how you like it? Rough?
Reita sighed, unable to put up with any sexual jokes to add to this wasted day.
- Hey I'm really a nice friend to you, do you know that? So, I did everything I could for you today but now, I'm off, I'm tired, I need a shower and my bed and a damn cigarette! So...
- Happy birthday Reita!
The lights were suddenly on, a sea of familiar faces were looking at him, smiling and Reita was so dazed that for five long seconds he hadn't moved nor spoken. And the only thing he found to say...
- It's tomorrow.
A slap on his head. Damn Uruha, for the thousand time this day.
- It's midnight for two minutes now, so it's your birthday stupid.
The bassist nodded, embarassed, stared at the ground and finally raised his head to look better at all the people here, his gaze falling first on the tiny silhouette of his boyfriend in the middle, on Aoi and Kai, on the staff members and some technicians...He scratched his head, not knowing what to say, again. He wasn't that good to show his emotions.
- Hey Rei, first of all, don't stand there speechless, come in so the party can start now the most important person is finally here!
Everybody agreed with Kai's words and finally, the bassist stepped in with a smile that could show how happy he was tonight.
- Ru?
No reply.
- Ru?
- Hm?
- Where are we going? I'm fucking tired you know, Uruha dragged me all day through the city and after this party, my body can't afford anything else.
The singer grinned while looking at the road in front of him and ignored his whiny boyfriend.
- It's your birthday.
Reita sighed in his seat:
- Yeah and it's 5am, I have a long day to celebrate it some more so can we go to my appartment and get some nice sleep, then I promise I'll do whatever you want.
Ruki smiled:
- We're nearly there.
- And who told you you could drive my car?
- Allowed myself.
But it seemed Reita wouldn't give up yet. And Ruki was surprised he didn't say anything else about his beloved car.
- No way Ru, let's go back, I haven't fed my babies.
The singer snickered and had a hard time muffling his laughs.
- What a bad daddy you are.
The bassist smiled, his mind seemed to wander and he said, looking at the road:
- They just need a mom. I'm sure they'd be happy to have a new brother.
Ruki got the giggles, blaming his boyfriend that he couldn't drive properly with him saying stupid things. Stupid things he was laughing at.
- I'm not going to be anyone's mom I hope you heard me well. Koron's a dog, not a bird.
- Sure if you raise him with those narrow minded ideas...
- But if Keiji and Oscar want another daddy I don't mind.
Reita laughed and Ruki stayed focused on the road, the black and large glasses keeping from his lover the way his eyes were smiling.
Reita managed to stay awake with Ruki's silly jokes or rants until the car stopped on a hill. The bassist looked around him and his eyes widened at the sight of a sparkling sea, the sunshines in the horizon illuminating the surface like it was covered with glitters. The loud noise of the door being shut took him out of his thoughts and he smiled as Ruki's silhouette hiding him the scenery. He joined him, one of his arm pulling the singer closer.
- Ru, you're so cliché.
- Fuck you.
- We already talked about that, you know it's my...
Ruki was kissing him.
- Stop wasting that moment asshole. Just admire the sight, it's your birthday's sunrise.
Reita shook his head, touched and began to chuckle alone until Ruki tried to punch him gently:
- Can I be cliché too?
- Try if you want.
The bassist smiled, a bit embarassed.
- I'm admiring the sight actually.
His eyes all for the smaller who was chewing on his lips to prevent them to show a grin.
- What's with this face? Are you disgusted or what? Am I really that bad?
Ruki laughed and only stole Reita's lips again in response and whispered against his mouth:
- Happy birthday.
He felt it against him, surprised at how the whole cheesy atmosphere could even produce that kind of effect. He simply looked at Reita with a smirk:
- That works on you?
The older groaned, embarassed.
- No, it's the view from here. I could just fuck the sea right now.
A rough kiss and a comment that couldn't arouse him more.
- Make me first.
The leather banquette was cold but he could only care about Reita's erection pressing against his crotch and the sound of their heavy breaths filling the car. Ruki moaned his name when he felt his hand on the growing bulge in his pants. Something hit him up, they would do it here, in the middle of nowhere, in this car. He couldn't be more aroused.
His grip on Reita's blond hair tightened when he was nibbling at his nipples after pushing up his shirt. He gasped for air, unable to think properly and the bassist grinned as Ruki hissed in pain after his teeth had released the his flesh.
- You bit me...
Moaning voice that had as an effect to simply arouse Reita more. He couldn't be mad because, he liked it rough at times. And he was so going to get revenge on the smaller under him anyway. His mouth heading up, licking the sensitive skin of Ruki's neck, reaping loud sighs and a shivering skin.
A loud cry resonated in the car as Reita was doing his best on marking his lover, sucking it insanely, teeth scraping against the flushed flesh.
Ruki could make him lose total control, could awake the beast in him.
Though the other didn't complain much and something between his legs said hello to the bassist who grinned widely in response against the violented skin.
- Ah fuck! I thought I told you no fucking marks...Certainly not where people might see them.
Reita giggled, kissing gently where it was scarlet and purple.
- Now you have my most wanted autograph. You should be proud.
Ruki stared back at him with a smile, bucking his hips upwards and Reita grabbed clumps of the other's hair, nipping at his lower lip furiously. Ruki as a reply, only clutched at Reita's butt, wanting to increase the friction between their clothed bodies.
They grounded their hips against each other, an arousing moan leaving Ruki's mouth that was then choked by Reita's tongue. The singer saw stars when he felt Reita's swollen member pressing against his, hissing with pleasure at the way his lover was rubbing against him insanely.
The blond's teeth bit down on Ruki's lower lip and he pulled away a little to order:
- Pants off.
The singer pressed his lips together, his eyes all for Reita, captivated by his stare filled with lust and rage.
And as a good student listening to his teacher, Ruki grabbed the waistline of his pants yanking it down sensually under his lover's deep gaze who wasn't missing anything of the little show.
He smirked at the sight, Ruki's throbbing cock easily noticeable behind the fabric of his underwear.
- Play fair and undress too!
The bassist grinned, momentarily stopping their hot session.
- Who's the birthday boy here?
Ruki laughed and grabbed Reita's face to kiss him.
- I should be the one spoiling you.
- But giving you happiness makes mine.
The smaller pulled his boyfriend against him more, kissing him slowly, savouring the sweetness.
- I love you.
Reita's head raised all of sudden but Ruki was staring at the ceiling or the car. It was beige. Nearly white. Pure.
- I love you too.
A glance at Reita's face. Back on the ceiling. At Reita's face.
Here.
The way they were both smiling...
Do I have that same creeper face as Reita right now? Is it his happiest face ever?
Well, nevermind, I want to make him smile this way constantly.
- I really do.
- I really do too.
Lips stuck again. A little cough.
- I don't want to kill the fuzzy atmosphere but my cock really needs some love too right now.
The singer's giggles echoed and soon he found the way to unbuckle his lover's jeans, his hand warming up the forlone shaft, his ears reaping the sound of Reita's sighs. He moaned lowly and his head went to hide in the crook of Ruki's neck, his legs entirely jelly. He wondered if he could keep the same difficult position any longer, the top of the car way too low for him to position himself better. He stopped the other's hand, breathless.
- Wait...
Reita left the warmth of Ruki to busy himself in the front of the car and smiled when instead of the top's color he could see a pale blue sky and clouds all around. Reita finished to tidy it completely and went back on his lover.
- What if someone finds us?
- We bring them free porn.
Ruki chuckled and pulled the bassist against himself, the fresh morning breeze tickling the parts of his body where it was bare. Almost everywhere.
He squeezed his eyes shut when Reita wrapped his hand around his aching cock, moving lazily up and down, rubbing then across the head with his thumb. He smirked to himself when Ruki cried out loudly, bucking his hips against' Reita's touch, his member sliding easily in his hand.
- Akir...
Ruki whimpered, arching his back up, unable to even pronounce Reita's name entirely, biting down on his lip with pleasure. The bassist then started to rub his free hand on the most intimate part of the singer, the tips of his fingers teasing slowly and Ruki was rapidly losing his mind.
- In the...Pocket of my...Jeans.
Reita only continued to stroke Ruki's cock, his other hand now trying to find the beloved item he was looking for until the tiny cold bottle was felt in his palm.
He released Ruki who sighed with ecstasy, flushed, with his hair and clothes messy. He poured a generous amount of lube on his fingers and without any warning, pushed in slowly one of them, cold, so much different from Reita's bare skin. The bassist hadn't even moved it yet that Ruki was pushing onto it fervently, loud sighs fading away in the fresh air of this sunny morning.
- I see you were prepared.
Momentarily, the singer looked at him with a sleepy expression, lost in the first minutes of his bliss.
- I always am with you.
Reita smiled to himself and pushed in deeper, stretching with a second finger and admired the way Ruki's hips were working to collect more pleasure.
- Do it already...I need you there.
Ruki opened his eyes, seeing blue when Reita's fingers left his warmth. The bassist positionned himself, on one knee on the backseat, the other where they'd be putting their feet if they weren't a couple of perverts. He raised Ruki's legs and the other was still staring at the morning sky.
It's beautiful.
This moment is the most perfect of my entire life.
And when Reita's lubbed dick was pushed in his entrance, he looked at him, hissing in pleasure, his eyes all for his lover who seemed to experience the same emotions.
And Ruki was finally proud of today. Of this special day and the special words he offered to Reita, how it had been easy, finally to tell him how much he loved him. He could write about feelings without any problem, but always had a hard time expressing them. Even when the loved one was Reita, an old friend and now a fabulous lover.
To Reita, it was the pilled up consequences of all those signs Ruki had started showing days ago. That he seemed more comfortable in their intimacy, his frowning face almost no longer visible.
Fulfilled, he thought. In a way, he had been scared to say the three words from the bottom of his heart, in fear things were being too rushed, Ruki's weird behaviour sowing doubts. Both blind, both not seeing the love growing bigger and bigger in their garden...
At least, now, they did.
And the bassist both licked and breathed against Ruki's right nipple while thrusting into him with delight.
- Rei...
His breath taken away, Ruki looked at the sky, momentarily closing his eyes when it was blissful to this point, to insanity. Like a call he was replying, Reita stole his lips and they shortened the kiss because their lungs were running out of air as someone's hips were moving faster and faster, in and out.
Loud groans in the middle of birds twittering.
The car moving slightly along with Reita's thrusts.
And his hand accompanying the movements around Ruki's cock, the bassist knowing he wouldn't last long with the tiredness and the unbearable desire running through his veins.
He was thirsty for Ruki. Hungry. Desperate.
It stained Reita's tank and it scared few birds, leaving the branches of the nearest trees.
And when Ruki opened his eyes, he got lost in the turquoise above, while Reita groaned, the sound coming right from his throat, the skin getting sweaty.
The singer let his fingers ran across his skin, his hand then slipping under the tank to tease the nipples of his beloved and grinned when Reita moaned in a sweeter way than before, his body shivering of the touch.
When Ruki contracted around him, four times in a row, Reita came loudly, resting his forehead on Ruki's naked chest, his hips at a slower speed until they stopped to move.
It wasn't until he could breathe normally again that he looked up at Ruki who was smiling.
Their eyes met and they both heard each other saying it again.
I love you.
Laughs vanished into air.
Uruha smiled and shut the door behind Kai and a staff member who were the last to leave. He turned around to look at his living-room and didn't care it was a mess, they had had so much fun and Uruha had needed some because the last days had been too morose for him...
He wasn't in the mood to clean though, only desiring a deserved rest after all the efforts he had made through the day to organize this surprise party and carry Reita here without him suspecting anything.
Uruha needed a shower and hoped it was going to wash away his thoughts and frustrations. Because Aoi had been so close sometimes, few steps away, he could have talked to him, could have said something, even as stupid as "Do you want a beer?". But nothing came out of his mouth and Uruha was mad at himself for letting this chance slip away from his hands. He wondered now when he would be able to talk to Aoi again, if he could ever surpass his fears and anxiety.
If music could be understood with words, Uruha would be composing a song that would speak for him but, Aoi needed some explanations, not music notes. And Uruha wasn't a singer. He wasn't particularly gifted with words and feelings, he wouldn't be in this state if he knew how to cope with them.
Human complexity.
He moved in the darkness of his appartment, the lights from the streets giving to his bedroom a shadowy atmosphere. He jolted from surprise when he noticed a silhouette, sat on his bed, a hand against his noisy chest. The other turned on the little lamp on the nightstand but Uruha had recognized him.
For so many nights he had watched his silhouette, above him, walking out of the bedroom or in, staring outside through the windows, naked, in the middle of the night and coming back to bed to love him more in the silence and in the darkness.
- Aoi...
A whisper. Now he had him for himself only, Uruha wanted him gone.
I know what I want but I'm a coward.
The dark haired had his gaze back into nothingness after taking a glance at Uruha's troubled face.
- I...I thought you were gone.
- But I'm here.
Immediate answer. Uruha felt awkward, standing still for no reason, looking at Aoi who was so calm and inscrutable.
- I waited for you to come to me since...Last time. But, you didn't.
It wasn't a reproach in his tone, just an observation and Uruha though, was reproaching himself for the things he hadn't been able to do and to say.
He showed his back, walked to his chest of drawers and looked at the cherry flower on his wall.
- I wanted to talk to you. I just couldn't.
Aoi left the bed and came closer to Uruha. The blond could feel him in his back and bit his lower lip when he felt Aoi's body brushing against his, softly.
- Why?
Uruha inhaled strongly:
- I hate what I did to you.
The blond closed his eyes as Aoi's mouth whispered into his ear:
- What did you do to me?
- I hurt you.
Uruha trembled under his warm touch, a gentle caresse under his shirt on his waist and felt himself losing control. Soon, Uruha's hand stopped his when he was slowly sliding in his pants.
- If you hate it, why didn't you change that? Why couldn't you stop hurting me?
The blond's chest didn't find back its regular rhythm, his warm palm still covering Aoi's hand against his skin. He wheeled around to face him and took time to think about what he truly wanted to say. Closer now, a finger stroking lovingly the line of Aoi's jaw, he kissed his lips, slowly, a timid touch.
Their mouths moved quickly, both unable to resist but Uruha pulled away in the end, framing Aoi's face, their breaths dancing on each other's lips.
- Because I don't want to love anyone too much.
There was something in Aoi's eyes that was flickering.
He remained mute while the other seemed to break down quietly. The ghost of Uruha's warm whisper was lingering on the thin skin of his lips. And the single tear falling, his quivering lips opening again to crush his heart once more...
- I don't want to love you too much Aoi.
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I propose we all throw tomatoes at Uruha. We can threaten to break his guitars. Or that I'm about to marry Sugizo (orz hahahaha). Sorry for the long wait. What happened to you meanwhile? LIFE right? Same to me. And, I'm happy to update this again and knowing that the next time is the last kinda makes me sad but, it all comes to an end, eventually. :)
BTW! This story will celebrate its first anniversary on the 5th of october! It's crazy how time passed by so quickly! I thought I'd have it over at that time of the year lol...*blames herself*
OKAY, announcing as well that this story when complete, will have a sequel (oneshot though), so, next time isn't really the "last". Thanks for still reading it, thanks for the support, if I could write it, it's thanks to all of you ♥
Chapter: 19/20
Genre: Ship/Romance, angst, fluff, smut.
Warnings: Angst. Smut.
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings: AoixUruha (ReitaxRuki)
Disclaimer: I only own my imagination ♪
Synopsis: Long lasting sex games are addicting. Follow the rules and be safe. Break them and see the consequences.
Comments: Took me forever. Soon coming to an end ;__;
Uruha's stare was drowning in his beer.
- It's still the same?
He raised his head.
- Still the same.
The same old shit I find myself in.
Reita let out a small sigh and squeezed his best friend's hand fleetingly.
- You really bother me these days. I'm not your fucking baby sitter.
Uruha pouted, looking at his reflection in the mirror of the elevator.
- Why are you so mean to me?
Reita crossed his arms, pinching his nose because it was stitching.
- Because you're so clingy, I had plans for today too and you come and decide that I should cancel everything for the whining queen you are.
The blond guitarist punched Reita's arm immediately and the other backed up, frowning:
- It hurt!
- Yeah I hope it did asshole!
The bassist rolled his eyes, wondering why his friend had been so moody lately but surely, Uruha needed his presence today again so he would forget his worries. Reita was almost sure it had something to do with Aoi but, the other wouldn't reply to his questions, forever changing the subject.
The elevator stopped and he followed Uruha who found his keys in the pocket of his jeans, quietly. Reita was afraid the blond was mad at him for the way he had talked to him but...He had planned so many things for today and everything had crashed down the second he saw Uruha's face at his door, and now he was sure Ruki was mad at him for that. He was so torn...
- What are you waiting for here? Should I carry you in bride style?
Reita stammered and looked at his friend before frowning.
- What the hell? Carry me? Touch me and your ass will meet the ground!
Uruha laughed, still holding the handle of the door with a grin:
- Oh, is that how you like it? Rough?
Reita sighed, unable to put up with any sexual jokes to add to this wasted day.
- Hey I'm really a nice friend to you, do you know that? So, I did everything I could for you today but now, I'm off, I'm tired, I need a shower and my bed and a damn cigarette! So...
- Happy birthday Reita!
The lights were suddenly on, a sea of familiar faces were looking at him, smiling and Reita was so dazed that for five long seconds he hadn't moved nor spoken. And the only thing he found to say...
- It's tomorrow.
A slap on his head. Damn Uruha, for the thousand time this day.
- It's midnight for two minutes now, so it's your birthday stupid.
The bassist nodded, embarassed, stared at the ground and finally raised his head to look better at all the people here, his gaze falling first on the tiny silhouette of his boyfriend in the middle, on Aoi and Kai, on the staff members and some technicians...He scratched his head, not knowing what to say, again. He wasn't that good to show his emotions.
- Hey Rei, first of all, don't stand there speechless, come in so the party can start now the most important person is finally here!
Everybody agreed with Kai's words and finally, the bassist stepped in with a smile that could show how happy he was tonight.
- Ru?
No reply.
- Ru?
- Hm?
- Where are we going? I'm fucking tired you know, Uruha dragged me all day through the city and after this party, my body can't afford anything else.
The singer grinned while looking at the road in front of him and ignored his whiny boyfriend.
- It's your birthday.
Reita sighed in his seat:
- Yeah and it's 5am, I have a long day to celebrate it some more so can we go to my appartment and get some nice sleep, then I promise I'll do whatever you want.
Ruki smiled:
- We're nearly there.
- And who told you you could drive my car?
- Allowed myself.
But it seemed Reita wouldn't give up yet. And Ruki was surprised he didn't say anything else about his beloved car.
- No way Ru, let's go back, I haven't fed my babies.
The singer snickered and had a hard time muffling his laughs.
- What a bad daddy you are.
The bassist smiled, his mind seemed to wander and he said, looking at the road:
- They just need a mom. I'm sure they'd be happy to have a new brother.
Ruki got the giggles, blaming his boyfriend that he couldn't drive properly with him saying stupid things. Stupid things he was laughing at.
- I'm not going to be anyone's mom I hope you heard me well. Koron's a dog, not a bird.
- Sure if you raise him with those narrow minded ideas...
- But if Keiji and Oscar want another daddy I don't mind.
Reita laughed and Ruki stayed focused on the road, the black and large glasses keeping from his lover the way his eyes were smiling.
Reita managed to stay awake with Ruki's silly jokes or rants until the car stopped on a hill. The bassist looked around him and his eyes widened at the sight of a sparkling sea, the sunshines in the horizon illuminating the surface like it was covered with glitters. The loud noise of the door being shut took him out of his thoughts and he smiled as Ruki's silhouette hiding him the scenery. He joined him, one of his arm pulling the singer closer.
- Ru, you're so cliché.
- Fuck you.
- We already talked about that, you know it's my...
Ruki was kissing him.
- Stop wasting that moment asshole. Just admire the sight, it's your birthday's sunrise.
Reita shook his head, touched and began to chuckle alone until Ruki tried to punch him gently:
- Can I be cliché too?
- Try if you want.
The bassist smiled, a bit embarassed.
- I'm admiring the sight actually.
His eyes all for the smaller who was chewing on his lips to prevent them to show a grin.
- What's with this face? Are you disgusted or what? Am I really that bad?
Ruki laughed and only stole Reita's lips again in response and whispered against his mouth:
- Happy birthday.
He felt it against him, surprised at how the whole cheesy atmosphere could even produce that kind of effect. He simply looked at Reita with a smirk:
- That works on you?
The older groaned, embarassed.
- No, it's the view from here. I could just fuck the sea right now.
A rough kiss and a comment that couldn't arouse him more.
- Make me first.
The leather banquette was cold but he could only care about Reita's erection pressing against his crotch and the sound of their heavy breaths filling the car. Ruki moaned his name when he felt his hand on the growing bulge in his pants. Something hit him up, they would do it here, in the middle of nowhere, in this car. He couldn't be more aroused.
His grip on Reita's blond hair tightened when he was nibbling at his nipples after pushing up his shirt. He gasped for air, unable to think properly and the bassist grinned as Ruki hissed in pain after his teeth had released the his flesh.
- You bit me...
Moaning voice that had as an effect to simply arouse Reita more. He couldn't be mad because, he liked it rough at times. And he was so going to get revenge on the smaller under him anyway. His mouth heading up, licking the sensitive skin of Ruki's neck, reaping loud sighs and a shivering skin.
A loud cry resonated in the car as Reita was doing his best on marking his lover, sucking it insanely, teeth scraping against the flushed flesh.
Ruki could make him lose total control, could awake the beast in him.
Though the other didn't complain much and something between his legs said hello to the bassist who grinned widely in response against the violented skin.
- Ah fuck! I thought I told you no fucking marks...Certainly not where people might see them.
Reita giggled, kissing gently where it was scarlet and purple.
- Now you have my most wanted autograph. You should be proud.
Ruki stared back at him with a smile, bucking his hips upwards and Reita grabbed clumps of the other's hair, nipping at his lower lip furiously. Ruki as a reply, only clutched at Reita's butt, wanting to increase the friction between their clothed bodies.
They grounded their hips against each other, an arousing moan leaving Ruki's mouth that was then choked by Reita's tongue. The singer saw stars when he felt Reita's swollen member pressing against his, hissing with pleasure at the way his lover was rubbing against him insanely.
The blond's teeth bit down on Ruki's lower lip and he pulled away a little to order:
- Pants off.
The singer pressed his lips together, his eyes all for Reita, captivated by his stare filled with lust and rage.
And as a good student listening to his teacher, Ruki grabbed the waistline of his pants yanking it down sensually under his lover's deep gaze who wasn't missing anything of the little show.
He smirked at the sight, Ruki's throbbing cock easily noticeable behind the fabric of his underwear.
- Play fair and undress too!
The bassist grinned, momentarily stopping their hot session.
- Who's the birthday boy here?
Ruki laughed and grabbed Reita's face to kiss him.
- I should be the one spoiling you.
- But giving you happiness makes mine.
The smaller pulled his boyfriend against him more, kissing him slowly, savouring the sweetness.
- I love you.
Reita's head raised all of sudden but Ruki was staring at the ceiling or the car. It was beige. Nearly white. Pure.
- I love you too.
A glance at Reita's face. Back on the ceiling. At Reita's face.
Here.
The way they were both smiling...
Do I have that same creeper face as Reita right now? Is it his happiest face ever?
Well, nevermind, I want to make him smile this way constantly.
- I really do.
- I really do too.
Lips stuck again. A little cough.
- I don't want to kill the fuzzy atmosphere but my cock really needs some love too right now.
The singer's giggles echoed and soon he found the way to unbuckle his lover's jeans, his hand warming up the forlone shaft, his ears reaping the sound of Reita's sighs. He moaned lowly and his head went to hide in the crook of Ruki's neck, his legs entirely jelly. He wondered if he could keep the same difficult position any longer, the top of the car way too low for him to position himself better. He stopped the other's hand, breathless.
- Wait...
Reita left the warmth of Ruki to busy himself in the front of the car and smiled when instead of the top's color he could see a pale blue sky and clouds all around. Reita finished to tidy it completely and went back on his lover.
- What if someone finds us?
- We bring them free porn.
Ruki chuckled and pulled the bassist against himself, the fresh morning breeze tickling the parts of his body where it was bare. Almost everywhere.
He squeezed his eyes shut when Reita wrapped his hand around his aching cock, moving lazily up and down, rubbing then across the head with his thumb. He smirked to himself when Ruki cried out loudly, bucking his hips against' Reita's touch, his member sliding easily in his hand.
- Akir...
Ruki whimpered, arching his back up, unable to even pronounce Reita's name entirely, biting down on his lip with pleasure. The bassist then started to rub his free hand on the most intimate part of the singer, the tips of his fingers teasing slowly and Ruki was rapidly losing his mind.
- In the...Pocket of my...Jeans.
Reita only continued to stroke Ruki's cock, his other hand now trying to find the beloved item he was looking for until the tiny cold bottle was felt in his palm.
He released Ruki who sighed with ecstasy, flushed, with his hair and clothes messy. He poured a generous amount of lube on his fingers and without any warning, pushed in slowly one of them, cold, so much different from Reita's bare skin. The bassist hadn't even moved it yet that Ruki was pushing onto it fervently, loud sighs fading away in the fresh air of this sunny morning.
- I see you were prepared.
Momentarily, the singer looked at him with a sleepy expression, lost in the first minutes of his bliss.
- I always am with you.
Reita smiled to himself and pushed in deeper, stretching with a second finger and admired the way Ruki's hips were working to collect more pleasure.
- Do it already...I need you there.
Ruki opened his eyes, seeing blue when Reita's fingers left his warmth. The bassist positionned himself, on one knee on the backseat, the other where they'd be putting their feet if they weren't a couple of perverts. He raised Ruki's legs and the other was still staring at the morning sky.
It's beautiful.
This moment is the most perfect of my entire life.
And when Reita's lubbed dick was pushed in his entrance, he looked at him, hissing in pleasure, his eyes all for his lover who seemed to experience the same emotions.
And Ruki was finally proud of today. Of this special day and the special words he offered to Reita, how it had been easy, finally to tell him how much he loved him. He could write about feelings without any problem, but always had a hard time expressing them. Even when the loved one was Reita, an old friend and now a fabulous lover.
To Reita, it was the pilled up consequences of all those signs Ruki had started showing days ago. That he seemed more comfortable in their intimacy, his frowning face almost no longer visible.
Fulfilled, he thought. In a way, he had been scared to say the three words from the bottom of his heart, in fear things were being too rushed, Ruki's weird behaviour sowing doubts. Both blind, both not seeing the love growing bigger and bigger in their garden...
At least, now, they did.
And the bassist both licked and breathed against Ruki's right nipple while thrusting into him with delight.
- Rei...
His breath taken away, Ruki looked at the sky, momentarily closing his eyes when it was blissful to this point, to insanity. Like a call he was replying, Reita stole his lips and they shortened the kiss because their lungs were running out of air as someone's hips were moving faster and faster, in and out.
Loud groans in the middle of birds twittering.
The car moving slightly along with Reita's thrusts.
And his hand accompanying the movements around Ruki's cock, the bassist knowing he wouldn't last long with the tiredness and the unbearable desire running through his veins.
He was thirsty for Ruki. Hungry. Desperate.
It stained Reita's tank and it scared few birds, leaving the branches of the nearest trees.
And when Ruki opened his eyes, he got lost in the turquoise above, while Reita groaned, the sound coming right from his throat, the skin getting sweaty.
The singer let his fingers ran across his skin, his hand then slipping under the tank to tease the nipples of his beloved and grinned when Reita moaned in a sweeter way than before, his body shivering of the touch.
When Ruki contracted around him, four times in a row, Reita came loudly, resting his forehead on Ruki's naked chest, his hips at a slower speed until they stopped to move.
It wasn't until he could breathe normally again that he looked up at Ruki who was smiling.
Their eyes met and they both heard each other saying it again.
I love you.
Laughs vanished into air.
Uruha smiled and shut the door behind Kai and a staff member who were the last to leave. He turned around to look at his living-room and didn't care it was a mess, they had had so much fun and Uruha had needed some because the last days had been too morose for him...
He wasn't in the mood to clean though, only desiring a deserved rest after all the efforts he had made through the day to organize this surprise party and carry Reita here without him suspecting anything.
Uruha needed a shower and hoped it was going to wash away his thoughts and frustrations. Because Aoi had been so close sometimes, few steps away, he could have talked to him, could have said something, even as stupid as "Do you want a beer?". But nothing came out of his mouth and Uruha was mad at himself for letting this chance slip away from his hands. He wondered now when he would be able to talk to Aoi again, if he could ever surpass his fears and anxiety.
If music could be understood with words, Uruha would be composing a song that would speak for him but, Aoi needed some explanations, not music notes. And Uruha wasn't a singer. He wasn't particularly gifted with words and feelings, he wouldn't be in this state if he knew how to cope with them.
Human complexity.
He moved in the darkness of his appartment, the lights from the streets giving to his bedroom a shadowy atmosphere. He jolted from surprise when he noticed a silhouette, sat on his bed, a hand against his noisy chest. The other turned on the little lamp on the nightstand but Uruha had recognized him.
For so many nights he had watched his silhouette, above him, walking out of the bedroom or in, staring outside through the windows, naked, in the middle of the night and coming back to bed to love him more in the silence and in the darkness.
- Aoi...
A whisper. Now he had him for himself only, Uruha wanted him gone.
I know what I want but I'm a coward.
The dark haired had his gaze back into nothingness after taking a glance at Uruha's troubled face.
- I...I thought you were gone.
- But I'm here.
Immediate answer. Uruha felt awkward, standing still for no reason, looking at Aoi who was so calm and inscrutable.
- I waited for you to come to me since...Last time. But, you didn't.
It wasn't a reproach in his tone, just an observation and Uruha though, was reproaching himself for the things he hadn't been able to do and to say.
He showed his back, walked to his chest of drawers and looked at the cherry flower on his wall.
- I wanted to talk to you. I just couldn't.
Aoi left the bed and came closer to Uruha. The blond could feel him in his back and bit his lower lip when he felt Aoi's body brushing against his, softly.
- Why?
Uruha inhaled strongly:
- I hate what I did to you.
The blond closed his eyes as Aoi's mouth whispered into his ear:
- What did you do to me?
- I hurt you.
Uruha trembled under his warm touch, a gentle caresse under his shirt on his waist and felt himself losing control. Soon, Uruha's hand stopped his when he was slowly sliding in his pants.
- If you hate it, why didn't you change that? Why couldn't you stop hurting me?
The blond's chest didn't find back its regular rhythm, his warm palm still covering Aoi's hand against his skin. He wheeled around to face him and took time to think about what he truly wanted to say. Closer now, a finger stroking lovingly the line of Aoi's jaw, he kissed his lips, slowly, a timid touch.
Their mouths moved quickly, both unable to resist but Uruha pulled away in the end, framing Aoi's face, their breaths dancing on each other's lips.
- Because I don't want to love anyone too much.
There was something in Aoi's eyes that was flickering.
He remained mute while the other seemed to break down quietly. The ghost of Uruha's warm whisper was lingering on the thin skin of his lips. And the single tear falling, his quivering lips opening again to crush his heart once more...
- I don't want to love you too much Aoi.
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I propose we all throw tomatoes at Uruha. We can threaten to break his guitars. Or that I'm about to marry Sugizo (orz hahahaha). Sorry for the long wait. What happened to you meanwhile? LIFE right? Same to me. And, I'm happy to update this again and knowing that the next time is the last kinda makes me sad but, it all comes to an end, eventually. :)
BTW! This story will celebrate its first anniversary on the 5th of october! It's crazy how time passed by so quickly! I thought I'd have it over at that time of the year lol...*blames herself*
OKAY, announcing as well that this story when complete, will have a sequel (oneshot though), so, next time isn't really the "last". Thanks for still reading it, thanks for the support, if I could write it, it's thanks to all of you ♥