False feelings.

[curtain_call]

I had just gotten out of my first Classical Ballet class here, and I was going to grab my purse and come home for an hour to get a bite to eat before I headed back. As I was grabbing my purse, someone said something, and I could have sworn it was Lon's voice saying, "Hey Chey Chey" the way he always did when he wanted my attention. By habit, I

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enough

[dirtylondry]

ok im sorry i fucked up. but saying i never loved you is a terrible thing to say. my actions may show that i didnt love you but everything i put into what we had and everything youll allways mean to me will allways bethere. so i am truly deeply sorry. you dont know how much it kills me to see that your sad upset or hurt. especially b/c of me. id do anyhting to take back every stupid thing ive done. but if i did then that wouldnt be lon. lon=stupid things. sounds odd. but fir all that i have truly loved you no matter what you say. if there was anyhting i could do to make you not sad short of dieng id do it. so im sorry chey chey. mabey someday you will hear thoes words again when we grow up. but for now i know how you feel and i know my place with you. but one day......

Re: enough

[curtain_call]

You can't be all that sorry, because you knew how I felt about you and us from the beginning, and you still don't have the balls to admit what you did to me. You can say "enough" all you want, but I did nothing wrong to you...EVER,and I have more than enough reason to feel horrible in every aspect! You say that Lon=stupid things, but that's only because YOU make that your reality. You have the choice to change that, and I was the only one who believed in you enough to think you could become that better person, but I guess this is what I get for having faith in you! So, as much as I'd love to believe that you ever loved me, I can't find it within me to believe a single word that comes out of your mouth anymore because that's all our relationship ever was to you...one big lie! And then I read that you're searching for another relationship...what the hell do you think you had?! You had a wonderful relationship and you blew it because you couldn't be faithful! Why should anyone believe that you ever will be? I already made that mistake!

Re: enough

[dirtylondry]

weird double posts. ok then here lets sum up what i said. im sorry wether you care/belive it or not. b/c i dont care if you do. doesnt matter.yes i was wrong, hense what saying your sorry is. and ya know i dont need to be changed. neither do you. why allways trying to change people. i am the way i am for a reason and so are you. whatever it may be. this is TOO MUCH DRAMA FOR ONLY BEING 18 or 19. that goes for you too mike. WTF everyone says life is too short. thats b/c ya'll drag out the stupid shit FOREVER. makes it seem short when your only focusing on one thing. ive said my peace. anything more is bullshit. QUIT JUST LIVING IN LIVE, JUST LIVE IT.

focker OUT!!!

Re: HAH

[curtain_call]

I realize that you're mad that everyone seems to be ganging up on you, but when you say "you 3" you really shouldn't include me in that because you have directly affected my life. I spent 2 years of my life devoting most of it to you, so this really does involve me and so do your actions. My point is not to be a bitch, but you hurt me in a way that no one else has, so you have to realize that I'm not the one bringing on the drama. I'm trying to deal with the betrayal that you've made me feel, and that does involve you. I don't understand how you can tell me you're sorry about what you did and say that you'd do anything short of dying to take it back, yet you still have the attitude of, "Fuck taking responsibility for my actions". I was in love with you for two whole years, so yes...we may be 18 and 19, but it's not like this is high school drama. This is something serious that you don't seem to care about, which really hurts me.

HAH

[greenfrickinday]

Hey Cheyanne and all the rest of the girls that happen to read this. LON IS A PIG. Cheyanne, you and Lon breaking up was one of the best things you could have done, I noticed he posted this on the 14th, the same day he is trying to hook back up with Erin.

"you will hear thoes words again when we grow up", yeah right, he will never grow up.

He does his best to confuse girls and when they are confused and vulnerable he moves in on them.

Re: HAH

[dirtylondry]

really mike quite childish......your words dont mean too much here. nor was i "trying to hook back up with erin". man your fucked in the head. i mean shit the girl cant even have friends? lol and im damn glad ill never grow up. the mind never ages only the body. man quit being such a downer. people have problems and some have more thats how it is. what you say really doesnt mean anything. and i hope it doesnt to anyone else. b/c your words are typed out of vengance, brought on by your own stupid parinoid ways. im not gunna call you a pig or try and be rude. but just pity you instead. apparently yo have far greater problems then anyone can see.

by the way its Cheyenne not Cheyanne

Re: HAH

[showthyme]

Congratulations Lon. You know how to spell her name. Mike and Cheyenne and everyone else who has described what an immature piece of shit you are are completely accurate. Good luck never growing up, and good luck never finding a decent relationship again. You threw away the best thing that ever happened to you when you put your own bad decisions ahead of the girl you claimed to love. It hurts for her to say you never loved her? Oh, that's right... because you loved her until you had the opportunity to be with someone else, then you just put your love on hold and planned to lie about it? I hope no other female ever believes a word coming out of your mouth because it's all just bull shit. You have no respect for women whatsoever, whether you're dating them or not, even after they give you two years of their life.

And P.S.: About the whole Erin thing. Mike is right. You should really stop telling all of your buddies your true intentions then lying about it to other people. It's almost like you want to get caught.

Have a nice life.

Re: HAH

[dirtylondry]

wow. lol. ya'll say the same thing in your own way. get over yourselfs and realize wtf your bickering about. me. HAHAHAHA yup thats right me. all you are affected by me and its stupid that you let it be like that. lau i dont know where the hell your comming from. somewhere out in left feild. chey i guees i reall must be a fuck or im just blind aparently. and mike you really really need to relax like wow. apparently lau never liked me but ohh well not a big concern at all. you are all WAY too self involved. to say the lesat. stess can kill and at this rate ya'll are gunna die young. i will to b/c ill allways be young at heart. ill live life happy. you guys go ahead and keep up the drama. mabey youll make good actresses someday. but ya know what you 3 people.....out of ohh 5 billion others....you 3 are bickering over me. if your so pissed at me why ever waste the timtelling me. i find this fun..i like arguing like this.....get everyone together havea nice heated discussion on who is the biggest screw up. to tell you the truth i dont

sorry...

[greenfrickinday]

Sorry for causing all of this drama on your journal Cheyenne.

Re: sorry...

[dirtylondry]

ass