Its Amazing..

[curtiswright]

...the flood of emotions that has overtaken me since the death of Kyser. Prior to this incident I enforced the control of a Top Gun Pilot over my emotiononal tendancies. Never wavering, always with an ultimate plan or goal in mind. Now I feel like I am parachuting down in hurricane. Out of control sometimes blowing up and sometimes the chute

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[dxl]

The good thing is that you're seeking help. I think what you're experiencing is an increased awareness and sensitivity to life, general existence, which can be both exhilarating and horrifying as youve seen. Like your snowglobe has been shaken violently. You appreciate things about your surroundings that you once that commonplace and mundane. But at the same time there's that limbo feeling of 'what the fuck is going on.'

I know there is no easy answer. Unfortunately the passage of time is the best tonic. Patience is one of the most rewarding but tiresome traits one can flex. Eventually you will feel reoriented, I know it. You have friends and family there to support you.

Work through the pain, embrace those overwhelming moments of love and appreciation. Life is a series of tensions and releases. You'll be all the wiser, perhaps even know yourself more than you thought you ever could, in a few years.