so i havent written in a very long time. and once again i am sitting at the beach. this time i am alone in my thoughts and in this room ( Read more... )

so i havent written anything in a long time. so here is the first question/bet. do i even have a chance and if i do how long before she leaves? and is this the next time i fall into another depression ( Read more... )

It flows in and out. In the dark coast lit light. They roll in and out. All you can see is the white of the caps. Its like our love. Back and forth, in and out. It starts and stops again. Its warm and yet cold to the touch. It’s a familiar touch and yet so foreign that I miss it. I watch the waves of this beach roll in and out in the dark non-moon ( Read more... )

so lets recall the weekend that was jon's 21st ( Read more... )

we all make decisions. and maybe my decisions are based on someone'e elses. what they choose impacts the decisions i make. maybe thats why i am married to my job. all i do is work. maybe b/c its easier to spend all day working. its better then being alone with alot of time to think about you and how you arent here. maybe all my decisions shouldnt ( Read more... )

have you ever not been able to find the words? have you ever not been able to find the word b/c you know thats whats best? have you ever fallen for somebody you shouldnt and they dont even know. and yet you know its better to never tell them? its hard to get by day by day with two or three people hanging over your head. and both you can do nothing ( Read more... )

i felt and watched a tear roll down my cheak tonight. not because of someone. not because of what i did. but because of what i didnt do. i have loved with all my heart. i have dont what other thought i couldnt do. and yet i watched that tear b/c there was one thing i couldnt do. b/c there was one thing that was instilled in me, one thing i was ( Read more... )

"its all about preferences which lead to different paths, and sometimes different preferences lead to the same path, sometimes the path you walk on splits in many ways and leaves one standing at a crossroad, it is at this crossroad where character is formed and decisions are made, it is at this cross road where life and love are either squandered ( Read more... )

"My life is waiting out there somewhere ( Read more... )

you ever come to a crossroads and are looking in so many different directions? people dont understand why i act the way i do. cause ive been there, ive lost so much and watched it all walk away when they didnt even know. i wont let it happen again, no matter what i look like to everyone else....