we could fall off the earth (lost)
Juliet never planned on falling in love with James. She never thought she’d have to feel her heart being ripped to pieces by one lingering look. She never would have guessed that the mere thought of losing him would make her wish she never met him in the first place.
She’d been denying it, she supposed, when Kate first came back. Reassured by fickle words, and hasty lies. But Juliet almost knew. They had a few stolen moments during those days, but it never negated the fact that she had come back. She hated feeling like that. The other woman.
‘Why are you doing this, Juliet?’
‘If I never meet you, then I never have to lose you.’
She’s selfish, she realises. Except she doesn’t want to feel like this, not like her heart is being torn two different ways. When she looks at his pleading eyes, she suddenly wishes she isn’t such a strong figure, wishes she could just crumble to his will. But no, she always had to be a stubborn one, didn’t she? She wishes she wasn’t.
-
‘Are you with me on this?’
Jack braces himself, ready for Kate’s answer. (He could never read her eyes) And he’s begging her, silently. Can she tell? Her pause is too long, and Jack gives her a weak smile of hope, and she finally nods.
‘Yes.’
-
Jack looks into Kate’s eyes and nods. They’re in this together. But are they really? She doesn’t have time to think. Jack passes her, and she wants to say something. What, though? ‘Good luck?’? ‘I love you’? She almost snorts at the thought. But the moment is gone, and he leaves without a glance back.
-
‘See you in Los Angeles.’
Jack almost stops again when he passes Sawyer. His expression, the lines on his face pull into a deep frown, eyes wild and tormented. But he doesn’t pause. His legs keep on moving. Jack’s a hero, after all. He doesn’t stop to examine frivolities. He’s the top surgeon. The difficult cases are given to him. And he has to bear the responsibility of it all. So he trudges forward, well aware of the broken eyes behind him.
It’s not like he wouldn’t go through with his plan, anyway. Why prolong the wait?
-
‘Can I ask you something, LaFleur?’
‘There ain’t no more LaFleur, Enos.’
In more ways than one, Sawyer thinks dryly.
-
‘Has it occurred to any of you, that your buddy’s actually going to cause the thing he says he’s trying to prevent?’
Miles can tell that they haven’t. How could they, with all this drama going on? James (or is it Sawyer, again?) looks at Juliet, and Hurley looks at the ground. Miles is almost incredulous, but it all seems rather fitting, in any case. In front of him are the very people who think they are doomed to misery, or death. Either one. He can’t stop the sarcastic remark, though. It’s his nature.
‘Well, I’m glad you all thought this through.’
‘We need to be getting people away from here!’
As if Radzinsky ever listened to Pierre, anyway. Why does he bother? Radzinsky was always too far gone in his ‘research’. He never had a wife and child he had just gotten to safety. Hopefully. Probably. Pierre Chang glares at the scale.
He’ll make it his goal, to go back to Lara and his baby, Miles. If he could get away from this rock. After today. After today.
‘Sawyer!’
Kate’s shouting it in warning, and it reminds Juliet. She sees James’ eyes, and she knew. That he would rather die than release her hand. But their hands are slipping, from the blood on his hands. So she makes the decision for him, and lets go.
‘I love you so much.’
‘No, no! Juliet!’
Well Juliet’s alive, at least. Or is she? Nothing’s in her head except James, James, and it hurts, until she sees the nuke. Juliet guesses that if there were someone above (though she doubts it, she stopped believing years ago), they had it in for her. She almost thinks about it, but why not? It’s what she was so set on doing.
‘Come on, you son of a bitch!’
How appropriate, that she uses his favourite curse. She hits the nuke with the rock, almost pleading for it to explode.
I’ll see you in the next life, James.