Go gadget LJ CUT!
This is kinda long and rambling...
God only knows how much I love you. I just can't bring myself to say it. I worry if it is too soon. I know you care about me deeply. I admire everything about you. When I'm not around you, you're all I want. And when you're near? You're still to far for me to reach. I just want to spill my heart out to you, and let you know that yes...I do want a serious relationship. More so than what we already are. I don't want to jinx myself and ask for more. I told you that I could never ask for anything more than we already have. And yet...I really do. So what do you say? Be the one I run to every night and day, be the one who shows me that you love me, be the one who holds me near in public as to say "yes, she is my world." Cuz you know you are my world. I've been trying to find words to describe how I feel for you in the form of song. So far nothing close has come. Words are only words right? I just want so much to tell you that I'm so very in love with you. But every time I even come so close, something inside of me tells me not to. I have the urge to tell it to the world, and yet I can't. I still don't know if you really meant to tell me you loved me when we got off the phone a while ago. I love you Justin. No lie. I miss you everyday I'm not with you. I'm ready for this. I'm ready to show you all of me, all that is me. You see a quiet girl, a sweet girl, some kind of innocence. I want you to see a grown woman, a strong person, a person with ambition and drive. Maybe you do see me that way. I wish I knew, but how silly of me would it be to ask you if you did. I watch you sleep sometimes. Somehow when you look at me I look away. What's wrong with me? Am I the one who's blind? I just want to stop saying how much I wish and I hope because I should be out there getting what I want and what I feel I deserve. It's difficult when it's allready here in front of me. There's so many things I'll never say...I know you can't read my mind. See right through me. I don't want to care about this all just because I know that you really do care. Just hold me, just hold me...